the garden party(园会)-第42部分
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you might say。 I've done it for Christmasmotto in holly; and alland
I've had my Easter lilies with a gorgeous star all daffodils in the middle。
I've hungwell; that's enough of that。 The day came he was to call for
me to choose the furniture。 Shall I ever forget it? It was a Tuesday。
My lady wasn't quite herself that afternoon。 Not that she'd said anything;
of course; she never does or will。 But I knew by the way that she kept
wrapping herself up and asking me if it was coldand her little nose
looked。。。pinched。 I didn't like leaving her; I knew I'd be worrying all the
time。 At last I asked her if she'd rather I put it off。 〃Oh no; Ellen;〃 she
said; 〃you mustn't mind about me。 You mustn't disappoint your young
man。〃 And so cheerful; you know; madam; never thinking about herself。
It made me feel worse than ever。 I began to wonder。。。then she dropped
her handkerchief and began to stoop down to pick it up herselfa thing
she never did。 〃Whatever are you doing!〃 I cried; running to stop her。
〃Well;〃 she said; smiling; you know; madam; 〃I shall have to begin to
practise。〃 Oh; it was all I could do not to burst out crying。 I went over
to the dressing…table and made believe to rub up the silver; and I couldn't
keep myself in; and I asked her if she'd rather I。。。didn't get married。 〃No;
Ellen;〃 she said that was her voice; madam; like I'm giving you〃No;
Ellen; not for the wide world!〃 But while she said it; madamI was
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looking in her glass; of course; she didn't know I could see hershe put
her little hand on her heart just like her dear mother used to; and lifted her
eyes。。。Oh; madam!
When Harry came I had his letters all ready; and the ring and a ducky
little brooch he'd given mea silver bird it was; with a chain in its beak;
and on the end of the chain a heart with a dagger。 Quite the thing! I
opened the door to him。 I never gave him time for a word。 〃There you
are;〃 I said。 〃Take them all back;〃 I said; 〃it's all over。 I'm not going to
marry you;〃 I said; 〃I can't leave my lady。〃 White! he turned as white as
a woman。 I had to slam the door; and there I stood; all of a tremble; till I
knew he had gone。 When I opened the doorbelieve me or not; madam…
…that man was gone! I ran out into the road just as I was; in my apron
and my house…shoes; and there I stayed in the middle of the road。。。staring。
People must have laughed if they saw me。。。
。。。Goodness gracious!What's that? It's the clock striking! And
here I've been keeping you awake。 Oh; madam; you ought to have
stopped me。。。Can I tuck in your feet? I always tuck in my lady's feet;
every night; just the same。 And she says; 〃Good night; Ellen。 Sleep
sound and wake early!〃 I don't know what I should do if she didn't say
that; now。
。。。Oh dear; I sometimes think。。。whatever should I do if anything were
to。。。But; there; thinking's no good to any oneis it; madam? Thinking
won't help。 Not that I do it often。 And if ever I do I pull myself up
sharp; 〃Now; then; Ellen。 At it againyou silly girl! If you can't find
anything better to do than to start thinking!。。。〃
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