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morning�察�written it with the hope that the sight of the written words might 

carry conviction where all his protests had failed。 

     ;I shall love you all the years of my life�察─�he wrote。 ;At any time�察�in 

any place�察�you may come to me and know that I am waiting。 Great love 

like this comes only once to any man�察�and once come to him it never goes 

away。 At any time in the years to come you may know with certainty that 

you are still to me what you are now�察�the love of my life。 

     ;Sometimes I think�察�dearest ´ I may call you that once�察�now that you 

have left me ´ that far away you will hear this call of mine and come back 

to me。 Perhaps you will never come。 Perhaps I shall not live。 I feel to´day 

that I do not care greatly to live。 

     ;If that is to be�察�then think of me somewhere�察�perhaps with Rene by 

my   side�察  �since   he�察  �too�察  �loved   you。 And   I   shall   still   be   calling   you�察  �and 

waiting。 Perhaps even beyond the stars they have need of a little house of 

mercy�察�and�察�God knows�察�wherever I am I shall have need of you。; 

     He   had   the   letter   in   the   pocket   of   his   tunic�察  �and   at   last   the   moment 

came when the boat must leave。 Suddenly Henri knew that he could not 


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allow her to cross to England alone。 The last few days had brought many 

stories    of  submarine      attacks。   Here�察   �so  far  north�察  �the   Germans      were 

particularly   active。   They   had   for   a   long   time   lurked   in   waiting   for   this 

British    Admiralty      boat�察 �with    its  valuable    cargo�察  �its  officers   and   the 

government oflicials who used it。 

     ;Good´by�察�Henri�察─�said Sara Lee。 ;I ´ of course it is no use to try to tell 

you ´; 

     ;I am going across with you。; 

     But ´; 

     ;I allowed you to come over alone。 I shiver when I think of it。 I shall 

take you back myself。; 

     ;Is it very dangerous�拭─�

     ;Probably not。 But can you think of me standing safe on that quay and 

letting you go into danger alone�拭─�

     ;I am not afraid。; 

     ;I know that。 I have never seen you afraid。 But if you wish to see a 

coward�察�look at me。 I am a coward for you。; 

     He put his hand into his pocket。 It occurred to him to give her the letter 

now   so   that   if   anything   happened   she   would   at   least   have   had   it。   He 

wanted no mistake about that appointment beyond the stars。 But the great 

world     of   eternity   was    very    large�察  �and   they    must    have    a  definite 

understanding about that meeting at the little house of mercy Over There。 

     Perhaps he had a little fever that day。 He was alternately flushed and 

pale�察�and certainly he was not quite rational。 His hand shook as he brought 

out her letter ´ and with it the other letter�察�from the Front。 

     ;Have you the time to come with me�拭─�Sara Lee asked doubtfully。 ;I 

want you to come�察�of course�察�but if your work will suffer ´; 

     He held out his letter to her。 

     ;I shall go away�察─�he said�察 �while you read it。 And perhaps you will not 

destroy it�察�because ´ I should like to feel that you have it always。; 

     He    went   away    at  once�察  �saluting    as  he  passed    other   officers�察  �who 

gravely saluted him。 On the deck of the hospital ship the invalid touched 

his cap。 Word was going about�察�in the stealthy manner of such things�察�that 


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Henri whose family name we may not know�察�was a brave man and doing 

brave things。 

     The steamer had not yet cast off。 As usual�察�it was to take a flying start 

from the harbor�察�for it was just outside the harbor that the wolves of the 

sea lay in wait。 Henri�察�alone at last�察�opened his letter�察�and stood staring at it。 

There was again movement behind the German line�察�a matter to be looked 

into�察�as only he could do it。 Probably nothing�察�as before�察�but who could 

say�拭�

     Henri looked along the shore to where but a few miles away lay the 

ragged remnant of his country。 And he looked forward to where Sara Lee�察�

his letter in her hand�察�was staring blindly at nothing。 Then he looked out 

toward the sea�察�where lay who knew what dangers of death and suffering。 

     After that first moment of indecision he never hesitated。 He stood on 

the deck and watched�察�rather frozen and rigid�察�and with a mind that had 

ceased   working�察  �while   the   steamer   warped   out   from   the   quay。   If   in   his 

subconsciousness there was any thought it was doubtless that he had done 

his best for a long time�察�and that he had earned the right to protect for a 

few hours   the girl   he loved。 That�察�too�察�there had been activity  along the 

German´Belgian line before�察�without result。 

     Perhaps     subconsciously      those   things   were    there。  He    himself   was 

conscious of no thought�察�of only a dogged determination to get Sara Lee 

across the channel safely。 He put everything else behind him。 He counted 

no cost。 

     The   little   admiralty   boat   sped   on。   In   the   bow�察  �on   the   bridge�察  �and   at 

different stations lookouts kept watch。 The lifeboats were hung overboard�察�

ready    to  lower    instantly。  On    the  horizon    a  British  destroyer    steamed 

leisurely。   Henri   stood   for   a   long   time   on   the   deck。   The   land   fell   away 

quickly。 From a clear silhouette of the town against the sky ´ the dunes�察�

thespire    of  the   cathedral�察  �the   roof  of   the  mairie   ´  it  became    vague�察�

shadowy ´ the height of a hand ´ a line ´ nothing。 

     Henri roused himself。 He was very thirsty�察�and the wound in his arm 

ached。 When he raised his hand to salute the movement was painful。 

     It was a very grave Sara Lee he found in the officer's cabin when he 


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went inside later on。 She was sitting on the long seat below the open port�察�

her hat slightly askew and her hands folded in her lap。 Her bag was beside 

her�察  �and   there   was   in   her   eyes   a   perplexity   Henri   was   too   wretched   to 

notice。 

     For the first time Sara Lee was realizing the full value of the thing she 

was throwing away。 She had persistently discounted it until now。 She had 

been grateful for it。 She had felt unworthy of it。 But now�察�on the edge of 

leaving   it�察  �she   felt   that   something   infinitely   precious   and   very   beautiful 

was going out of her life。 She had already a sense of loss。 

     For   the   first   time�察  �too�察  �she   was   allowing   herself   to   think   of   certain 

contingencies that were now forever impossible。 For instance�察�suppose she 

had stayed with Mrs。 Cameron�拭�Suppose she had broken her promise to 

Harvey and remained at the little house�拭�Suppose she had done as Henri 

had so wildly urged her�察�and had broken entirely with Harvey�拭�Would she 

have married Henri�拭�

     There was a certain element of caution in the girl。 It made the chances 

she   had   taken   rather   more   courageous�察  �indeed�察  �because   she   had   always 

counted the cost。 But marriage was not a matter for taking chances。 One 

should know not only the man�察�but his setting�察�though she would not have 

thought of it in that way。 Not only the man�察�but the things that made up his 

life ´ his people�察�his home。 

     And Henri was to her still a figure�察�not so much now of mystery as of 

detachment。   Except   Jean   he   had   no   intimates。   He   had   no   family   on   the 

only side of the line she knew。 He had not even a country。 

     She   had   reached   that   point   when   Henri   came   below   and   saluted   her 

stiffly from the doorway。 

     ;Henri� ─�she said。 ;I believe you are ill� ─�

     I   am  not   ill�察─  �he   said�察  �and   threw   himself   into   the   corner   of   the   seat。 

;You have read it�拭─�

     She   nodded。   Even   thinking   of   it   brought   a   lump   into   her   throat。   He 

bent forward�察�but he did not touch her。 

     ;I   meant   it�察  �Saralie�察─  �he   said。   ;Sometimes   men   are   infatuated�察  �and 

write what they do not mean。 They are sincere at the time�察�and then later 


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on ´ But I meant it。 I shall always mean it。; 

     Not then�察�nor during the three days in London�察�did he so much as take 

her hand。 He was not well。 He ate nothing�察�and at night he lay awake and 

drank   a   great   deal   of   water。   Once   or twice   he   found   her   looking   at   him 

anxiously�察�but he disclaimed all illness。 

     He had known from the beginning what he was doing。 But he did not 

touch   her�察  �because   in   his   heart   he   knew   that   where   once   he   had   been 

worthy he was no longer worthy。 He had left his work for a woman。 

     It is true that he had expected to go back at once。 But the Philadelphia�察�

which   had   been   listed   to   sail   the   next   day�察  �was   held   up   by   a   strike   in 

Liverpool�察  �and   he   waited   on�察  �taking   such   hours   as   she   could   give   him�察�

feverishly     anxious    to  make     her  happy�察   �buying    her   little  gifts  mostly 

flowers�察�which she wore tucked in her belt and smiled over�察�because she 

had never before received flowers from a man。 

     He was alternately gay and silent。 They walked across the Thames by 

the Parliament buildings�察�and midway across he stopped and looked long 

at the stream。 And they went to the Zoological Gardens�察�where he gravely 

named one of the sea lions for Colonel Lilias because of its mustache�察�and 

insisted on saluting it each time before he flung it a fish。 Once he soberly 

gathered up a very new baby camel�察�all legs�察�in his arms�察�and presented it 

to her。 

     ;Please accept it�察�mademoiselle�察─�he said。 ;With my compliments。; 

   

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