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`I had a better opinion of you��' said I�察 �I had imagined that your motive for
bestowing your friendship upon me was very different indeed from the
one you now betray。' With the greatest effrontery he acknowledged that
he had been always of the same mind�察 �and that his sister having once
sacrificed her virtue�察 �though it might be to the man she most loved�察 �he
would never have consented to a reconciliation with her�察�but with the hope
of deriving some advantage from her past misconduct。
;It was easy to see that we had been hitherto his dupes。
Notwithstanding the disgust with which his proposition inspired me�察�still�察�
as I felt that I had occasion for his services�察 �I said�察 �with apparent
complacency�察�that we ought only to entertain such a plan as a last resource。
I begged of him to suggest some other。
;He proposed to me to turn my youth and the good looks nature had
bestowed upon me to some account�察�by establishing a liaison with some
generous old dame。 This was just as little to my taste�察 �for it would
necessarily have rendered me unfaithful to Manon。
;I mentioned play as the easiest scheme�察�and the most suitable to my
present situation。 He admitted that play certainly was a resource�察�but that
it was necessary to consider the point well。 `Mere play��' said he�察 �with its
ordinary chances�察�is the certain road to ruin�察�and as for attempting�察�alone
and without an ally�察 �to employ the little means an adroit man has for
correcting the vagaries of luck�察�it would be too dangerous an experiment。'
There was�察�he stated�察�a third course�察�which was to enter into what he called
a partnership�察�but he feared his confederates would consider my youth an
objection to my admittance。 He�察�however�察�promised to use his influence
with them�察�and�察�what was more than I expected at his hands�察�he said that
he would supply me with a little money whenever I had pressing occasion
for any。 The only favour I then asked of him was to say nothing to
Manon of the loss I had experienced�察 �nor of the subject of our
conversation。
;I certainly derived little comfort from my visit to Lescaut�察�I felt even
sorry for having confided my secret to him�此�not a single thing had he done
for me that I might not just as well have done for myself�察 �without
troubling him�察 �and I could not help dreading that he would violate his
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promise to keep the secret from Manon。 I had also reason to apprehend�察�
from his late avowals�察�that he might form the design of making use of her
for his own vile purposes�察�or at least of advising her to quit me for some
happier and more wealthy lover。 This idea brought in its train a thousand
reflections�察�which had no other effect than to torment me�察�and throw me
again into the state of despair in which I had passed the morning。 It
occurred to me�察 �more than once�察�to write to my father�察�and to pretend a
new reformation�察�in order to obtain some pecuniary assistance from him�察�
but I could not forget that�察 �notwithstanding all his natural love and
affection for me�察�he had shut me up for six months in a confined room for
my first transgression�察 �and I was certain that�察 �after the scandalous
sensation caused by my flight from St。 Sulpice�察�he would be sure to treat
me with infinitely more rigour now。
;At length�察�out of this chaos of fancies came an idea that all at once
restored ease to my mind�察 �and which I was surprised at not having hit
upon sooner�察�this was�察�to go again to my friend Tiberge�察�in whom I might
be always sure of finding the same unfailing zeal and friendship。 There
is nothing more gloriousnothing that does more honour to true virtue�察�
than the confidence with which one approaches a friend of tried integrity�察�
no apprehension�察�no risk of unkind repulse�此�if it be not always in his power
to afford the required succour�察�one is sure at least of meeting kindness and
compassion。 The heart of the poor supplicant�察 �which remains
impenetrably closed to the rest of the world�察�opens in his presence�察�as a
flower expands before the orb of day�察�from which it instinctively knows it
can derive a cheering and benign influence only。
;I consider it a blessing to have thought so apropos of Tiberge�察 �and
resolved to take measures to find him before evening。 I returned at once
to my lodgings to write him a line�察 �and fix a convenient place for our
meeting。 I requested secrecy and discretion�察 �as the most important
service he could render me under present circumstances。
;The pleasure I derived from the prospect of seeing Tiberge dissipated
every trace of melancholy�察�which Manon would not have failed otherwise
to detect in my countenance。 I described our misfortune at Chaillot as a
trifle which ought not to annoy her�察�and Paris being the spot she liked best
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in the world�察�she was not sorry to hear me say that it would be necessary
for us to remain there entirely�察�until the little damage was repaired which
had been caused by the fire at Chaillot。
;In an hour I received an answer from Tiberge�察�who promised to be at
the appointed rendezvous。 I went there punctually。 I certainly felt some
shame at encountering a friend whose presence alone ought to be a
reproach to my iniquities�察�but I was supported by the opinion I had of the
goodness of his heart�察�as well as by my anxiety about Manon。
;I had begged of him to meet me in the garden of the Palais Royal。
He was there before me。 He hastened towards me�察�the moment he saw
me approach and shook me warmly by both hands。 I said that I could not
help feeling perfectly ashamed to meet him�察�and that I was weighed down
by a sense of my ingratitude�察�that the first thing I implored of him was to
tell me whether I might still consider him my friend�察�after having so justly
incurred the loss of his esteem and affection。 He replied�察�in the kindest
possible manner�察 �that it was not in the nature of things to destroy his
regard for me�察�that my misfortunes even�察�or�察�if he might so call them�察�my
faults and transgressions�察�had but increased the interest he felt for me�察�but
that he must confess his affection was not unalloyed by a sentiment of the
liveliest sorrow�察 �such as a person may be supposed to feel at seeing a
beloved object on the brink of ruin�察�and beyond the reach of his assistance。
;We sat down upon a bench。 `Alas��' said I with a deep sigh�察 �your
compassion must be indeed great�察�my dear Tiberge�察�if you assure me it is
equal to my sufferings。 I am almost ashamed to recount them�察 �for I
confess they have been brought on by no very creditable course of conduct�此�
the results�察 �however�察 �are so truly melancholy�察 �that a friend even less
attached than you would be affected by the recital。'
;He then begged of me�察 �in proof of friendship�察 �to let him know�察�
without any disguise�察�all that had occurred to me since my departure from
St。 Sulpice。 I gratified him�察 �and so far from concealing anything�察 �or
attempting to extenuate my faults�察 �I spoke of my passion with all the
ardour with which it still inspired me。 I represented it to him as one of
those especial visitations of fate�察�which draw on the devoted victim to his
ruin�察�and which it is as impossible for virtue itself to resist�察�as for human
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wisdom to foresee。 I painted to him in the most vivid colours�察 �my
excitement�察�my fears�察�the state of despair in which I had been two hours
before I saw him�察�and into which I should be again plunged�察�if I found my
friends as relentless as fate had been。 I at length made such an
impression upon poor Tiberge�察 �that I saw he was as much affected by
compassion�察�as I by the recollection of my sufferings。
;He took my hand�察�and exhorted me to have courage and be comforted�察�
but�察�as he seemed to consider it settled that Manon and I were to separate�察�
I gave him at once to understand that it was that very separation I
considered as the most intolerable of all my misfortunes�察�and that I was
ready to endure not only the last degree of misery�察�but death itself�察�of the
cruellest kind�察 �rather than seek relief in a remedy worse than the whole
accumulation of my woes。
;`Explain yourself�察�then��' said he to me�察 �what assistance can I afford
you�察 �if you reject everything I propose��' I had not courage to tell him
that it was from his purse I wanted relief。 He�察�however�察�comprehended it