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submission�察�that I called out to him in an angry voice�察�unless he held his
peace on the instant�察 �I would order him to be knocked on the head and
thrown overboard。 He was mute then�察�until the child died�察�very peacefully�察�
an hour afterwards�此�which was known to all in the boat by the mother's
breaking out into lamentations for the first time since the wreckfor�察�she
had great fortitude and constancy�察�though she was a little gentle woman。
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Old Mr。 Rarx then became quite ungovernable�察�tearing what rags he had
on him�察�raging in imprecations�察�and calling to me that if I had thrown the
gold overboard ��always the gold with him�。� I might have saved the child。
;And now�察─�says he�察�in a terrible voice�察 �we shall founder�察�and all go to the
Devil�察�for our sins will sink us�察�when we have no innocent child to bear us
up� ─ �We so discovered with amazement�察 �that this old wretch had only
cared for the life of the pretty little creature dear to all of us�察�because of
the influence he superstitiously hoped she might have in preserving him� �
Altogether it was too much for the smith or armourer�察�who was sitting next
the old man�察�to bear。 He took him by the throat and rolled him under the
thwarts�察�where he lay still enough for hours afterwards。
All that thirteenth night�察 �Miss Coleshaw�察 �lying across my knees as I
kept the helm�察 �comforted and supported the poor mother。 Her child�察�
covered with a pea´jacket of mine�察�lay in her lap。 It troubled me all night
to think that there was no Prayer´Book among us�察 �and that I could
remember but very few of the exact words of the burial service。 When I
stood up at broad day�察�all knew what was going to be done�察�and I noticed
that my poor fellows made the motion of uncovering their heads�察�though
their heads had been stark bare to the sky and sea for many a weary hour。
There was a long heavy swell on�察�but otherwise it was a fair morning�察�and
there were broad fields of sunlight on the waves in the east。 I said no more
than this�此 �I am the Resurrection and the Life�察�saith the Lord。 He raised the
daughter of Jairus the ruler�察�and said she was not dead but slept。 He raised
the widow's son。 He arose Himself�察�and was seen of many。 He loved little
children�察�saying�察�Suffer them to come unto Me and rebuke them not�察�for of
such is the kingdom of heaven。 In His name�察�my friends�察�and committed to
His merciful goodness� ─�With those words I laid my rough face softly on
the placid little forehead�察�and buried the Golden Lucy in the grave of the
Golden Mary。
Having had it on my mind to relate the end of this dear little child�察�I
have omitted something from its exact place�察�which I will supply here。 It
will come quite as well here as anywhere else。
Foreseeing that if the boat lived through the stormy weather�察�the time
must come�察�and soon come�察�when we should have absolutely no morsel to
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eat�察 �I had one momentous point often in my thoughts。 Although I had�察�
years before that�察�fully satisfied myself that the instances in which human
beings in the last distress have fed upon each other�察�are exceedingly few�察�
and have very seldom indeed ��if ever�� occurred when the people in distress�察�
however dreadful their extremity�察 �have been accustomed to moderate
forbearance and restraint�察 �I say�察 �though I had long before quite satisfied
my mind on this topic�察�I felt doubtful whether there might not have been in
former cases some harm and danger from keeping it out of sight and
pretending not to think of it。 I felt doubtful whether some minds�察�growing
weak with fasting and exposure and having such a terrific idea to dwell
upon in secret�察�might not magnify it until it got to have an awful attraction
about it。 This was not a new thought of mine�察�for it had grown out of my
reading。 However�察�it came over me stronger than it had ever done before
as it had reason for doing in the boat�察�and on the fourth day I decided
that I would bring out into the light that unformed fear which must have
been more or less darkly in every brain among us。 Therefore�察�as a means
of beguiling the time and inspiring hope�察�I gave them the best summary in
my power of Bligh's voyage of more than three thousand miles�察�in an open
boat�察�after the Mutiny of the Bounty�察�and of the wonderful preservation of
that boat's crew。 They listened throughout with great interest�察 �and I
concluded by telling them�察�that�察�in my opinion�察�the happiest circumstance
in the whole narrative was�察 �that Bligh�察 �who was no delicate man either�察�
had solemnly placed it on record therein that he was sure and certain that
under no conceivable circumstances whatever would that emaciated party�察�
who had gone through all the pains of famine�察�have preyed on one another。
I cannot describe the visible relief which this spread through the boat�察�and
how the tears stood in every eye。 From that time I was as well convinced
as Bligh himself that there was no danger�察�and that this phantom�察�at any
rate�察�did not haunt us。
Now�察�it was a part of Bligh's experience that when the people in his
boat were most cast down�察�nothing did them so much good as hearing a
story told by one of their number。 When I mentioned that�察 �I saw that it
struck the general attention as much as it did my own�察 �for I had not
thought of it until I came to it in my summary。 This was on the day after
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Mrs。 Atherfield first sang to us。 I proposed that�察 �whenever the weather
would permit�察 �we should have a story two hours after dinner ��I always
issued the allowance I have mentioned at one o'clock�察�and called it by that
name���察 �as well as our song at sunset。 The proposal was received with a
cheerful satisfaction that warmed my heart within me�察�and I do not say too
much when I say that those two periods in the four´and´twenty hours were
expected with positive pleasure�察 �and were really enjoyed by all hands。
Spectres as we soon were in our bodily wasting�察�our imaginations did not
perish like the gross flesh upon our bones。 Music and Adventure�察�two of
the great gifts of Providence to mankind�察�could charm us long after that
was lost。
The wind was almost always against us after the second day�察�and for
many days together we could not nearly hold our own。 We had all varieties
of bad weather。 We had rain�察�hail�察�snow�察�wind�察�mist�察�thunder and lightning。
Still the boats lived through the heavy seas�察�and still we perishing people
rose and fell with the great waves。
Sixteen nights and fifteen days�察 �twenty nights and nineteen days�察�
twenty´four nights and twenty´three days。 So the time went on。
Disheartening as I knew that our progress�察�or want of progress�察�must be�察�I
never deceived them as to my calculations of it。 In the first place�察�I felt
that we were all too near eternity for deceit�察�in the second place�察�I knew
that if I failed�察�or died�察�the man who followed me must have a knowledge
of the true state of things to begin upon。 When I told them at noon�察�what I
reckoned we had made or lost�察 �they generally received what I said in a
tranquil and resigned manner�察 �and always gratefully towards me。 It was
not unusual at any time of the day for some one to burst out weeping
loudly without any new cause�察 �and�察 �when the burst was over�察 �to calm
down a little better than before。 I had seen exactly the same thing in a
house of mourning。
During the whole of this time�察�old Mr。 Rarx had had his fits of calling
out to me to throw the gold ��always the gold�。� overboard�察�and of heaping
violent reproaches upon me for not having saved the child�察�but now�察�the
food being all gone�察 �and I having nothing left to serve out but a bit of
coffee´berry now and then�察 �he began to be too weak to do this�察 �and
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consequently fell silent。 Mrs。 Atherfield and Miss Coleshaw generally lay�察�
each with an arm across one of my knees�察 �and her head upon it。 They
never complained at all。 Up to the time of her child's death�察 �Mrs。
Atherfield had bound up her own beautiful hair every day�察 �and I took
particular notice that this was always before she sang her song at night�察�
when everyone looked at her。 But she never did it after the loss of her
darling�察�and it would have been now all tangled with dirt and wet�察�but that
Miss Coleshaw was careful of it long after she was herself�察 �and would
sometimes smooth it down with her weak thin hands。
We were past mustering a story now�察�but one day�察�at about this period�察�
I reverted to the superstition of old Mr。 Rarx�察�concerning the Golden Lucy�察�
and told them that nothing vanished from the eye of God�察 �though much
might pass away from the eyes of men。 ;We were all