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expect nothing but with trouble�察�such as exacting it by force�察�
receiving it with curses and reluctance�察�and with all kinds of
affronts�察�which he would not perhaps bear to see�察�that in case
of being obliged to legal proofs of being really her daughter�察�
I might be at loss�察�be obliged to have recourse to England�察�and
it may be to fail at last�察�and so lose it�察�whatever it might be。
With these arguments�察�and having thus acquainted my husband
with the whole secret so far as was needful of him�察�we resolved
to go and seek a settlement in some other colony�察�and at first
thoughts�察�Caroline was the place we pitched upon。
In order to this we began to make inquiry for vessels going to
Carolina�察�and in a very little while got information�察�that on the
other side the bay�察�as they call it�察�namely�察�in Maryland�察�there
was a ship which came from Carolina�察�laden with rice and
other goods�察�and was going back again thither�察�and from
thence to Jamaica�察�with provisions。 On this news we hired a
sloop to take in our goods�察�and taking�察�as it were�察�a final
farewell of Potomac River�察�we went with all our cargo over
to Maryland。
This was a long and unpleasant voyage�察�and my spouse said
it was worse to him than all the voyage from England�察�because
the weather was but indifferent�察�the water rough�察�and the
vessel small and inconvenient。 In the next place�察�we were full
a hundred miles up Potomac River�察�in a part which they call
Westmoreland County�察�and as that river is by far the greatest
in Virginia�察�and I have heard say it is the greatest river in the
world that falls into another river�察�and not directly into the sea�察�
so we had base weather in it�察�and were frequently in great
danger�察�for though we were in the middle�察�we could not see
land on either side for many leagues together。 Then we had
the great river or bay of Chesapeake to cross�察�which is where
the river Potomac falls intoit�察�near thirty miles broad�察�and we
entered more great vast waters whose names I know not�察�so
that our voyage was full two hundred miles�察�in a poor�察�sorry
sloop�察�with all our treasure�察�and if any accident had happened
to us�察�we might at last have been very miserable�察�supposing
we had lost our goods and saved our lives only�察�and had then
been left naked and destitute�察�and in a wild�察�strange place not
having one friend or acquaintance in all that part of the world。
The very thought of it gives me some horror�察�even since the
danger is past。
Well�察�we came to the place in five days' sailing�察�I think they
call it Philip's Point�察�and behold�察�when we came thither�察�the
ship bound to Carolina was loaded and gone away but three
days before。 This was a disappointment�撮察�but�察�however�察�I�察�
that was to be discouraged with nothing�察�told my husband
that since we could not get passage to Caroline�察�and that the
country we was in was very fertile and good�察�we would�察�if he
liked of it�察�see if we could find out anything for our tune where
we was�察�and that if he liked things we would settle here。
We immediately went on shore�察�but found no conveniences
just at that place�察�either for our being on shore or preserving
our goods on shore�察�but was directed by a very honest Quaker�察�
whom we found there�察�to go to a place about sixty miles east�察�
that is to say�察�nearer the mouth of the bay�察�where he said he
lived�察�and where we should be accommodated�察�either to plant�察�
or to wait for any other place to plant in that might be more
convenient�察�and he invited us with so much kindness and
simply honesty�察�that we agreed to go�察�and the Quaker himself
went with us。
Here we bought us two servants�察�viz。 an English woman´servant
just come on shore from a ship of Liverpool�察�and a Negro
man´servant�察�things absolutely necessary for all people that
pretended to settle in that country。 This honest Quaker was
very helpful to us�察�and when we came to the place that he
proposed to us�察�found us out a convenient storehouse for our
goods�察�and lodging for ourselves and our servants�察�and about
two months or thereabouts afterwards�察�by his direction�察�we
took up a large piece of land from the governor of that country�察�
in order to form our plantation�察�and so we laid the thoughts
of going to Caroline wholly aside�察�having been very well
received here�察�and accommodated with a convenient lodging
till we could prepare things�察�and have land enough cleared�察�
and timber and materials provided for building us a house�察�all
which we managed by the direction of the Quaker�察�so that in
one year's time we had nearly fifty acres of land cleared�察�part
of it enclosed�察�and some of it planted with tabacco�察�though
not much�察�besides�察�we had garden ground and corn sufficient
to help supply our servants with roots and herbs and bread。
And now I persuaded my husband to let me go over the bay
again�察�and inquire after my friends。 He was the willinger to
consent to it now�察�because he had business upon his hands
sufficient to employ him�察�besides his gun to divert him�察�which
they call hunting there�察�and which he greatly delighted in�察�and
indeed we used to look at one another�察�sometimes with a great
deal of pleasure�察�reflecting how much better that was�察�not than
Newgate only�察�but than the most prosperous of our circumstances
in the wicked trade that we had been both carrying on。
Our affair was in a very good posture�察�we purchased of the
proprietors of the colony as much land for #35�察�paid in ready
money�察�as would make a sufficient plantation to employ
between fifty and sixty servants�察�and which�察�being well
improved�察�would be sufficient to us as long as we could either
of us live�察�and as for children�察�I was past the prospect of
anything of that kind。
But out good fortune did not end here。 I went�察�as I have said�察�
over the bay�察�to the place where my brother�察�once a husband�察�
lived�察�but I did not go to the same village where I was before�察�
but went up another great river�察�on the east side of the river
Potomac�察�called Rappahannock River�察�and by this means
came on the back of his plantation�察�which was large�察�and by
the help of a navigable creek�察�or little river�察�that ran into the
Rappahannock�察�I came very near it。
I was now fully resolved to go up point´blank to my brother
��husband���察�and to tell him who I was�察�but not knowing what
temper I might find him in�察�or how much out of temper rather�察�
I might make him by such a rash visit�察�I resolved to write a
letter to him first�察�to let him know who I was�察�and that I was
come not to give him any trouble upon the old relation�察�which
I hoped was entirely forgot�察�but that I applied to him as a sister
to a brother�察�desiring his assistance in the case of that provision
which our mother�察�at her decease�察�had left for my support�察�and
which I did not doubt but he would do me justice in�察�especially
considering that I was come thus far to look after it。
I said some very tender�察�kind things in the letter about his
son�察�which I told him he knew to be my own child�察�and that
as I was guilty of nothing in marrying him�察�any more than he
was in marrying me�察�neither of us having then known our
being at all related to one another�察�so I hoped he would allow
me the most passionate desire of once seeing my one and only
child�察�and of showing something of the infirmities of a mother
in preserving a violent affect for him�察�who had never been
able to retain any thought of me one way or other。
I did believe that�察�having received this letter�察�he would
immediately give it to his son to read�察�I having understood
his eyesbeing so dim�察�that he could not see to read it�察�but it
fell out better than so�察�for as his sight was dim�察�so he had
allowed his son to open all letters that came to his hand for
him�察�and the old gentleman being from home�察�or out of the
way when my messenger came�察�my letter came directly to my
son's hand�察�and he opened and read it。
He called the messenger in�察�after some little stay�察�and asked
him where the person was who gave him the letter。 The
messengertold him the place�察�which was about seven miles
off�察�so he bid him stay�察�and ordering a horse to be got ready�察�
and two servants�察�away he came to me with the messenger。
Let any one judge the consternation I was in when my
messenger came back�察�and told me the old gentleman was not
at home�察�but his son was come along with him�察�and was just
coming up to me。 I was perfectly confounded�察�for I knew not
whether it was peace or war�察�nor could I tell how to behave�察�
however�察�I had but a very few moments to think�察�for my son
was at the heels of the messenger�察�and coming up into my
lodgings�察�asked the fellow at the door something。 I suppose
it was�察�for I did not hear it so as to understand it�察�which was
the gentlewoman that sent him�察�for the messenger said�察�'There
she is�察�sir'�察�at which he comes directly up to me�察�kisses me�察�
took me in his arms�察�and embraced me with so much passion
that he could not speak�察�but I could feel his breast heave and
throb like a child�察�that cries�察�but sobs�察�and cannot cry it out。
I can neither express nor describe the joy that touched my very
soul when I found�察�for it was easy to discover that part�察�that
he came not as a stranger�察�but as a son to a mother�察�and indeed
as a son who had never before known what a mother of his
own was�察�in short�察�we cried over one another a considerable
while�察�when at last he broke out first。 'My dear mother��' says
he�察�'are you still alive�拭 �I never expected to have seen your
face。' As for me�察�I could say nothing a great while。
After we had both recovered ourselves a little�察�and were able
to talk�察�he told me how things stood。 As to what I had written
to his father�察�he told me he had not showed my letter to his
father�察�or told him anything about it�察�that what his grandmother
left me was in