the deliverance-第23部分
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of distressand he felt with a savage joy that it was from Fletcher。 He looked down； drawing together his tattered sleeves。 For a time he was silent； and when he spoke it was with a sneering laugh。
〃Well； I've been a fool； that's all；〃 was what he said。
CHAPTER V。 The Glimpse of a Bride
The next morning he awoke with stiffened limbs and confusion in his head； and for a time he lay idly looking at his little window…panes； beyond which the dawn hung like a curtain。 Then； as a long finger of sunlight pointed through the glass； he rose with an effort and； dressing himself hastily； went downstairs to breakfast。 Here he found that Zebbadee Blake； who had promised to help him cut his crop； had not yet appeared； owing probably to the excitement of Fletcher's runaway。 The man's absence annoyed him at first； and then； as the day broke clear and cold； he succumbed to his ever present fear of frost and； taking his pruning…knife from the kitchen mantelpiece； went out alone to begin work on his ripest plants。
The sun had already tempered the morning chill in the air； and the slanting beams stretched over the tobacco； which； as the dew dried； showed a vivid green but faintly tinged with yellowa colour that even in the sparkling sunlight appeared always slightly shadowed。 To attempt alone the cutting of his crop； small as it was； seemed； with his stiffened limbs； a particularly trying task； and for a moment he stood gazing wearily across the field。 Presently； with a deliberate movement as if he were stooping to shoulder a fresh burden； he slit the first ripe stalk from its flaunting top to within a hand's…breadth of the ground； then； cutting it half through near the roots； he let it fall to one side； where it hung； slowly wilting； on the earth。 Gradually； as he applied himself to the work； the old zest of healthful labour returned to him； and he passed buoyantly through the narrow aisle； leaving a devastated furrow on either side。 It was a cheerful picture he presented； when Tucker； dragging himself heavily from the house； came to the ragged edge of the field and sat down on an old moss…grown stump。 〃Where's Zebbadee； Christopher？〃 〃 He didn't turn up。 It was that affair of the accident； probably。 Fletcher berated him； I reckon。〃 〃So you've got to cut it all yourself。 Well； it's a first…rate cropthe very primings ought to be as good as some top leaves。〃 〃The crop's all right；〃 responded Christopher； as his knife passed with a ripping noise down the juicy stalk。 〃You know I made a fool of myself yesterday； Uncle Tucker；〃 he said suddenly； drawing back when the plant fell slowly across the furrow； 〃and I'm so stiff in the joints this morning I can hardly move。 I met one of Fletcher's farm wagons running away； with his boy dragged by the reins； andI stopped it。〃 Tucker turned his mild blue eyes upon him。 Since the news of Appomattox nothing had surprised him； and he was not surprised nowhe was merely interested。 〃You couldn't have helped it； I suspect；〃 he remarked。
〃I didn't know whose it was； you see；〃 answered Christopher； 〃the horses were new。〃 〃You'd have done it anyway； I reckon。 At such moments it's a man's mettle that counts； you know； and not his emotions。 You might have hated Fletcher ten times worse； but you'd have risked your life to stop the horses all the same because； after all； what a man is is something different from how he feels about things。 It's in your blood to dare everything whenever a chance offers； as it was in your father's before you。 Why； I've seen him stop on the way to a ball； pull off his coat； and go up a burning ladder to save a woman's pet canary； and then； when the crowd hurrahed him； I've laughed because I knew he deserved nothing of the kind。 With him it wasn't courage so much as his inborn love of violent actionit cleared his head； he used to say。〃 Christopher stopped cutting； straightened himself； and held his knife loosely in his hand。 〃That's about it； I reckon；〃 he returned。 〃I know I'm not a bit of a heroif I'd been in your place I'd have shown up long ago for a skulking cowardbut it's the excitement of the moment that I like。 Why； there's nothing in life I'd enjoy so much as knocking Fletcher downit's one of the things I look forward to that makes it all worth while。〃 Tucker laughed softly。 It was a peculiarity of his never to disapprove。 That's a good savage instinct；〃 he said； with a humorous tremor of his nostrils； 〃and it's a saying of mine； you know； that a man is never reallycivilised until he has turned fifty。 We're all born mighty near to the wolf and mighty far from the dog； and it takes a good many years to coax the wild beast to lie quiet by the fireside。 It's the struggle that the Lord wants； I reckon； and anyhow； He makes it easier for us as the years go on。 When a man gets along past his fiftieth year； he begins to understand that there are few things worth bothering about； and the sins of his fellow mortals are not among 'em。〃 〃 Bless my soul！〃 exclaimed Christopher in disgust； rapping his palm smartly with the flat blade of his knife。 〃Do you mean to tell me you've actually gone and forgiven Bill Fletcher？〃 〃Well； I wouldn't go so far as to water the grass on his grave； 〃answered Tucker； still smiling； 〃but I've not the slightest objection to his eating； sleeping； and moving on the surface of the earth。 There's room enough for us both； even in this little county； and so long as he keeps out of my sight； as far as I am concerned he absolutely doesn't exist。 I never think of him except when you happen to call his name。 If a man steals my money； that's his affair。 I can't afford to let him steal my peace of mind as well。〃 With a groan Christopher went back to his work。 〃It may be sense you're talking；〃 he observed； 〃but it sounds to me like pure craziness。 It's just as well； either way； I reckon； that I'm not in your place and you in minefor if that were so Fletcher would most likely go scot free。〃 Tucker rose unsteadily from the stump。 〃Why； if we stood in each other's boots； 〃he said； with a gentle chuckle； 〃or； to be exact； if I stood in your two boots and you in my one； as sure as fate； you'd be thinking my way and I yours。 Well； I wish I could help you； but as I can't I'll be moving slowly back。〃
He shuffled off on his crutches； painfully swinging himself a step at a time； and Christopher； after a moment's puzzled stare at his pathetic figure； returned diligently to his work。
His passage along the green aisle was very slow； and when at last he reached the extreme end by the little beaten path and felled the last stalk on his left side he straightened himself for a moment's rest； and stood； bareheaded； gazing over the broad field； which looked as if a windstorm had blown in an even line along the edge； scattering the outside plants upon the ground。 The thought of his work engrossed him at the instant； and it was with something of a start that he became conscious presently of Maria Fletcher's voice at his back。 Wheeling about dizzily； he found her leaning on the old rail fence； regarding him with shining eyes in which the tears seemed hardly dried。
〃I have just left Will；〃 she said； 〃the doctor has set his leg and he is sleeping。 It was my last chanceI am going away to…morrowand I wanted to tell youI wanted so to tell you how grateful we feel。〃
The knife dropped from his hand； and he came slowly along the little path to the fence。
〃I fear you've got an entirely wrong idea about me； 〃he answered。 〃It was nothing in the world to make a fuss overand I swear to you if it were the last word I ever spokeI did not know it was your brother。〃
〃As if that mattered！〃 she exclaimed； and he remembered vaguely that he had heard her use the words before。 〃You risked your life to save his life； we know that。 Grandpa saw it alland the horses dragged you； too。 You would have been killed if the others hadn't run up when they did。 And you tell meas if that made it any the less brave that you didn't know it was Will。〃
〃I didn't； 〃he repeated stubbornly。 〃I didn't。〃
〃Well； he does； 〃 she responded； smiling； 〃and he wants to thank you himself when he is well enough。〃
〃If you wish to do me a kindness； for heaven's sake tell him not to；〃 he said irritably。 〃I hate all such foolishness it makes me out a hypocrite！〃
〃I knew you'd hate it； I told them so；〃 tranquilly responded the girl。 〃Aunt Saidie wanted to rush right over last night； but I wouldn't let her。 All brave men dislike to have a fuss made over them； I know。〃
〃Good Lord！〃 ejaculated Christopher； and stopped short； impatiently desisting before the admiration illumining her eyes。 》From her former disdain he had evidently risen to a height in her regard that was romantic in its ardour。 It was in vain that he told himself he cared for one emotion as little as for the otherin spite of his words； the innocent fervour in her face swept over the barrier of his sullen pride。
〃So you are going away to…morrow； 〃he said at last； 〃and for good？〃
〃For good； yes。 I go abroad very unexpectedly for perhaps five years。 My things aren't half ready； but business is of more importance than a woman's clothes。〃
〃Will you be alone？〃
〃Oh； no。〃
〃Who goes with you？〃 he insisted bluntly。
As she reddened； he watched the colour spread slowly to her throat and ear。
〃I am to be married； you know；〃 she answered； with her accustomed composure of tone。
His lack of gallantry was churlish。
〃To that dummy with the brown mustache？〃 he inquired。
A little hysterical laugh broke from her； and she made a hopeless gesture of reproof。 〃Your manners are really elementary；〃 she remarked； adding immediately： 〃I assure you he isn't in the least a dummyhe is considered a most delightful talker。〃
He swept the jest impatiently aside。
〃Why do you do it？〃 he demanded。
〃Do what？〃
〃You know what I mean。 Why do you marry him？〃
Again she bit back a laugh。 It was all very primitive； very savage； she told herself； it was； above all； different from any of the life that she had known； and yet； in a mysterious way； it was familiar； as if the unrestrained emotion in his voice stirred some racial memory within her brain。
〃Why do I marry him？〃 She drew a step away； looking at sky and field。 〃Why do I marry him？〃 She hesitated slightl
