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these matters we must fire a gun to leeward�察�show our colours�察�and
go by。 Argument is impossible。 They are two of my favourite
authors�此 �Herrick above all�此 �I suppose they are two of yours。
Well�察�Janus´like�察�they do behold us two with diverse countenances�察�
few features are common to these different avatars�察�and we can but
agree to differ�察�but still with gratitude to our entertainers�察�like
two guests at the same dinner�察�one of whom takes clear and one
white soup。 By my way of thinking�察�neither of us need be wrong。
The other papers are all interesting�察�adequate�察�clear�察�and with a
pleasant spice of the romantic。 It is a book you may be well
pleased to have so finished�察�and will do you much good。 The
Crashaw is capital�此 �capital�察�I like the taste of it。 Preface
clean and dignified。 The handling throughout workmanlike�察�with
some four or five touches of preciosity�察�which I regret。
With my thanks for information�察�entertainment�察�and a pleasurable
envy here and there。 ´ Yours affectionately��
R。 L。 S。
Letter�此 �TO W。 E。 HENLEY
LA SOLITUDE�察�HYERES´LES´PALMIERS�察�VAR�察�SEPTEMBER 19�察�1883。
DEAR BOY�察 � Our letters vigorously cross�此 �you will ere this have
received a note to Coggie�此 �God knows what was in it。
It is strange�察�a little before the first word you sent me ´ so late
´ kindly late�察�I know and feel ´ I was thinking in my bed�察�when I
knew you I had six friends ´ Bob I had by nature�察�then came the
good James Walter ´ with all his failings ´ the GENTLEMAN of the
lot�察�alas to sink so low�察�alas to do so little�察�but now�察�thank God�察�
in his quiet rest�察�next I found Baxter ´ well do I remember telling
Walter I had unearthed 'a W。S。 that I thought would do' ´ it was in
the Academy Lane�察�and he questioned me as to the Signet's
qualifications�察�fourth came Simpson�察�somewhere about the same time�察�
I began to get intimate with Jenkin�察�last came Colvin。 Then�察�one
black winter afternoon�察�long Leslie Stephen�察�in his velvet jacket�察�
met me in the SPEC。 by appointment�察�took me over to the infirmary�察�
and in the crackling�察�blighting gaslight showed me that old head
whose excellent representation I see before me in the photograph。
Now when a man has six friends�察�to introduce a seventh is usually
hopeless。 Yet when you were presented�察�you took to them and they
to you upon the nail。 You must have been a fine fellow�察�but what a
singular fortune I must have had in my six friends that you should
take to all。 I don't know if it is good Latin�察�most probably not�此 �
but this is enscrolled before my eye for Walter�此 �TANDEM E NUBIBUS
IN APRICUM PROPERAT。 Rest�察�I suppose�察�I know�察�was all that
remained�察�but O to look back�察�to remember all the mirth�察�all the
kindness�察�all the humorous limitations and loved defects of that
character�察�to think that he was young with me�察�sharing that
weather´beaten�察�Fergussonian youth�察�looking forward through the
clouds to the sunburst�察�and now clean gone from my path�察�silent ´
well�察�well。 This has been a strange awakening。 Last night�察�when I
was alone in the house�察�with the window open on the lovely still
night�察�I could have sworn he was in the room with me�察�I could show
you the spot�察�and�察�what was very curious�察�I heard his rich
laughter�察�a thing I had not called to mind for I know not how long。
I see his coral waistcoat studs that he wore the first time he
dined in my house�察�I see his attitude�察�leaning back a little�察�
already with something of a portly air�察�and laughing internally。
How I admired him� �And now in the West Kirk。
I am trying to write out this haunting bodily sense of absence�察�
besides�察�what else should I write of��
Yes�察�looking back�察�I think of him as one who was good�察�though
sometimes clouded。 He was the only gentle one of all my friends�察�
save perhaps the other Walter。 And he was certainly the only
modest man among the lot。 He never gave himself away�察�he kept back
his secret�察�there was always a gentle problem behind all。 Dear�察�
dear�察�what a wreck�察�and yet how pleasant is the retrospect� �God
doeth all things well�察�though by what strange�察�solemn�察�and
murderous contrivances��
It is strange�此 �he was the only man I ever loved who did not
habitually interrupt。 The fact draws my own portrait。 And it is
one of the many reasons why I count myself honoured by his
friendship。 A man like you HAD to like me�察�you could not help
yourself�察�but Ferrier was above me�察�we were not equals�察�his true
self humoured and smiled paternally upon my failings�察�even as I
humoured and sorrowed over his。
Well�察�first his mother�察�then himself�察�they are gone�此 �'in their
resting graves。'
When I come to think of it�察�I do not know what I said to his
sister�察�and I fear to try again。 Could you send her this�拭 �There
is too much both about yourself and me in it�察�but that�察�if you do
not mind�察�is but a mark of sincerity。 It would let her know how
entirely�察�in the mind of ��I suppose�� his oldest friend�察�the good�察�
true Ferrier obliterates the memory of the other�察�who was only his
'lunatic brother。'
Judge of this for me�察�and do as you please�察�anyway�察�I will try to
write to her again�察�my last was some kind of scrawl that I could
not see for crying。 This came upon me�察�remember�察�with terrible
suddenness�察�I was surprised by this death�察�and it is fifteen or
sixteen years since first I saw the handsome face in the SPEC。 I
made sure�察�besides�察�to have died first。 Love to you�察�your wife�察�
and her sisters。
´ Ever yours�察�dear boy��
R。 L。 S。
I never knew any man so superior to himself as poor James Walter。
The best of him only came as a vision�察�like Corsica from the
Corniche。 He never gave his measure either morally or
intellectually。 The curse was on him。 Even his friends did not
know him but by fits。 I have passed hours with him when he was so
wise�察�good�察�and sweet�察�that I never knew the like of it in any
other。 And for a beautiful good humour he had no match。 I
remember breaking in upon him once with a whole red´hot story ��in
my worst manner���察�pouring words upon him by the hour about some
truck not worth an egg that had befallen me�察�and suddenly�察�some
half hour after�察�finding that the sweet fellow had some concern of
his own of infinitely greater import�察�that he was patiently and
smilingly waiting to consult me on。 It sounds nothing�察�but the
courtesy and the unselfishness were perfect。 It makes me rage to
think how few knew him�察�and how many had the chance to sneer at
their better。
Well�察�he was not wasted�察�that we know�察�though if anything looked
liker irony than this fitting of a man out with these rich
qualities and faculties to be wrecked and aborted from the very
stocks�察�I do not know the name of it。 Yet we see that he has left
an influence�察�the memory of his patient courtesy has often checked
me in rudeness�察�has it not you��
You can form no idea of how handsome Walter was。 At twenty he was
splendid to see�察�then�察�too�察�he had the sense of power in him�察�and
great hopes�察�he looked forward�察�ever jesting of course�察�but he
looked to see himself where he had the right to expect。 He
believed in himself profoundly�察�but HE NEVER DISBELIEVED IN OTHERS。
To the roughest Highland student he always had his fine�察�kind�察�open
dignity of manner�察�and a good word behind his back。
The last time that I saw him before leaving for America ´ it was a
sad blow to both of us。 When he heard I was leaving�察�and that
might be the last time we might meet ´ it almost was so ´ he was
terribly upset�察�and came round at once。 We sat late�察�in Baxter's
empty house�察�where I was sleeping。 My dear friend Walter Ferrier�此 �
O if I had only written to him more� �if only one of us in these
last days had been well� �But I ever cherished the honour of his
friendship�察�and now when he is gone�察�I know what I have lost still
better。 We live on�察�meaning to meet�察�but when the hope is gone�察�
the�察�pang comes。
R。 L。 S。
Letter�此 �TO EDMUND GOSSE
LA SOLITUDE�察�HYERES´LES´PALMIERS�察�26TH SEPTEMBER 1883。
MY DEAR GOSSE�察 � It appears a bolt from Transatlantica is necessary
to produce four lines from you。 It is not flattering�察�but as I was
always a bad correspondent�察�'tis a vice to which I am lenient。 I
give you to know�察�however�察�that I have already twice ��this makes
three times�� sent you what I please to call a letter�察�and received
from you in return a subterfuge ´ or nothing。 。 。 。
My present purpose�察�however�察�which must not be postponed�察�is to ask
you to telegraph to the Americans。
After a summer of good health of a very radiant order�察�toothache
and the death of a very old friend�察�which came upon me like a
thunderclap�察�have rather shelved my powers。 I stare upon the
paper�察�not write。 I wish I could write like your Sculptors�察�yet I
am well aware that I should not try in that direction。 A certain
warmth ��tepid enough�� and a certain dash of the picturesque are my
poor essential qualities�察�and if I went fooling after the too
classical�察�I might lose even these。 But I envied you that page。
I am�察�of course�察�deep in schemes�察�I was so ever。 Execution alone
somewhat halts。 How much do you make per annum�察�I wonder�拭 �This
year�察�for the first time�察�I shall pass 300 pounds�察�I may even get
halfway to the next milestone。 This seems but a faint
remuneration�察�and the devil of it is�察�that I manage�察�with sickness�察�
and moves�察�and education�察�and the like�察�to keep steadily in front
of my income。 However�察�I console myself with this�察�that if I were
anything else under God's Heaven�察�and had the same crank health�察�I
should make an even zero。 If I had�察�with my present knowledge�察�
twelve months of my old health�察�I would�察�could�察�and should do
something neat。 As it is�察�I have to tinker at my things in little