tales and fantasies-第22部分
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became her like a jewel of the mind? There might be another
thought; a shade of cowardice; a selfish desire to please;
poor Dick was merely human; and what would you have had him
do?
CHAPTER IV … ESTHER ON THE FILIAL RELATION
A MONTH later Dick and Esther met at the stile beside the
cross roads; had there been any one to see them but the birds
and summer insects; it would have been remarked that they met
after a different fashion from the day before。 Dick took her
in his arms; and their lips were set together for a long
while。 Then he held her at arm's…length; and they looked
straight into each other's eyes。
'Esther!' he said; you should have heard his voice!
'Dick!' said she。
'My darling!'
It was some time before they started for their walk; he kept
an arm about her; and their sides were close together as they
walked; the sun; the birds; the west wind running among the
trees; a pressure; a look; the grasp tightening round a
single finger; these things stood them in lieu of thought and
filled their hearts with joy。 The path they were following
led them through a wood of pine…trees carpeted with heather
and blue…berry; and upon this pleasant carpet; Dick; not
without some seriousness; made her sit down。
'Esther!' he began; 'there is something you ought to know。
You know my father is a rich man; and you would think; now
that we love each other; we might marry when we pleased。 But
I fear; darling; we may have long to wait; and shall want all
our courage。'
'I have courage for anything;' she said; 'I have all I want;
with you and my father; I am so well off; and waiting is made
so happy; that I could wait a lifetime and not weary。'
He had a sharp pang at the mention of the Admiral。 'Hear me
out;' he continued。 'I ought to have told you this before;
but it is a thought I shrink from; if it were possible; I
should not tell you even now。 My poor father and I are
scarce on speaking terms。'
'Your father;' she repeated; turning pale。
'It must sound strange to you; but yet I cannot think I am to
blame;' he said。 'I will tell you how it happened。'
'Oh Dick!' she said; when she had heard him to an end; 'how
brave you are; and how proud。 Yet I would not be proud with
a father。 I would tell him all。'
'What!' cried Dick; 'go in months after; and brag that I had
meant to thrash the man; and then didn't。 And why? Because
my father had made a bigger ass of himself than I supposed。
My dear; that's nonsense。'
She winced at his words and drew away。 'But when that is all
he asks;' she pleaded。 'If he only knew that you had felt
that impulse; it would make him so proud and happy。 He would
see you were his own son after all; and had the same thoughts
and the same chivalry of spirit。 And then you did yourself
injustice when you spoke just now。 It was because the editor
was weak and poor and excused himself; that you repented your
first determination。 Had he been a big red man; with
whiskers; you would have beaten him … you know you would … if
Mr。 Naseby had been ten times more committed。 Do you think;
if you can tell it to me; and I understand at once; that it
would be more difficult to tell it to your own father; or
that he would not be more ready to sympathise with you than I
am? And I love you; Dick; but then he is your father。'
'My dear;' said Dick; desperately; 'you do not understand;
you do not know what it is to be treated with daily want of
comprehension and daily small injustices; through childhood
and boyhood and manhood; until you despair of a hearing;
until the thing rides you like a nightmare; until you almost
hate the sight of the man you love; and who's your father
after all。 In short; Esther; you don't know what it is to
have a father; and that's what blinds you。'
'I see;' she said musingly; 'you mean that I am fortunate in
my father。 But I am not so fortunate after all; you forget;
I do not know him; it is you who know him; he is already more
your father than mine。' And here she took his hand。 Dick's
heart had grown as cold as ice。 'But I am sorry for you;
too;' she continued; 'it must be very sad and lonely。'
'You misunderstand me;' said Dick; chokingly。 'My father is
the best man I know in all this world; he is worth a hundred
of me; only he doesn't understand me; and he can't be made
to。'
There was a silence for a while。 'Dick;' she began again; 'I
am going to ask a favour; it's the first since you said you
loved me。 May I see your father … see him pass; I mean;
where he will not observe me?'
'Why?' asked Dick。
'It is a fancy; you forget; I am romantic about fathers。'
The hint was enough for Dick; he consented with haste; and
full of hang…dog penitence and disgust; took her down by a
backway and planted her in the shrubbery; whence she might
see the Squire ride by to dinner。 There they both sat
silent; but holding hands; for nearly half an hour。 At last
the trotting of a horse sounded in the distance; the park
gates opened with a clang; and then Mr。 Naseby appeared; with
stooping shoulders and a heavy; bilious countenance;
languidly rising to the trot。 Esther recognised him at once;
she had often seen him before; though with her huge
indifference for all that lay outside the circle of her love;
she had never so much as wondered who he was; but now she
recognised him; and found him ten years older; leaden and
springless; and stamped by an abiding sorrow。
'Oh Dick; Dick!' she said; and the tears began to shine upon
her face as she hid it in his bosom; his own fell thickly
too。 They had a sad walk home; and that night; full of love
and good counsel; Dick exerted every art to please his
father; to convince him of his respect and affection; to heal
up this breach of kindness; and reunite two hearts。 But
alas! the Squire was sick and peevish; he had been all day
glooming over Dick's estrangement … for so he put it to
himself; and now with growls; cold words; and the cold
shoulder; he beat off all advances; and entrenched himself in
a just resentment。
CHAPTER V … THE PRODIGAL FATHER MAKES HIS DEBUT AT HOME
THAT took place upon a Tuesday。 On the Thursday following;
as Dick was walking by appointment; earlier than usual; in
the direction of the cottage; he was appalled to meet in the
lane a fly from Thymebury; containing the human form of Miss
M'Glashan。 The lady did not deign to remark him in her
passage; her face was suffused with tears; and expressed much
concern for the packages by which she was surrounded。 He
stood still; and asked himself what this circumstance might
portend。 It was so beautiful a day that he was loth to
forecast evil; yet something must perforce have happened at
the cottage; and that of a decisive nature; for here was Miss
M'Glashan on her travels; with a small patrimony in brown
paper parcels; and the old lady's bearing implied hot battle
and unqualified defeat。 Was the house to be closed against
him? Was Esther left alone; or had some new protector made
his appearance from among the millions of Europe? It is the
character of love to loathe the near relatives of the loved
one; chapters in the history of the human race have justified
this feeling; and the conduct of uncles; in particular; has
frequently met with censure from the independent novelist。
Miss M'Glashan was now seen in the rosy colours of regret;
whoever succeeded her; Dick felt the change would be for the
worse。 He hurried forward in this spirit; his anxiety grew
upon him with every step; as he entered the garden a voice
fell upon his ear; and he was once more arrested; not this
time by doubt; but by indubitable certainty of ill。
The thunderbolt had fallen; the Admiral was here。
Dick would have retreated; in the panic terror of the moment;
but Esther kept a bright look…out when her lover was
expected。 In a twinkling she was by his side; brimful of
news and pleasure; too glad to notice his embarrassment; and
in one of those golden transports of exultation which
transcend not only words but caresses。 She took him by the
end of the fingers (reaching forward to take them; for her
great preoccupation was to save time); she drew him towards
her; pushed him past her in the door; and planted him face to
face with Mr。 Van Tromp; in a suit of French country
velveteens and with a remarkable carbuncle on his nose。
Then; as though this was the end of what she could endure in
the way of joy; Esther turned and ran out of the room。
The two men remained looking at each other with some
confusion on both sides。 Van Tromp was naturally the first
to recover; he put out his hand with a fine gesture。
'And you know my little lass; my Esther?' he said。 'This is
pleasant; this is what I have conceived of home。 A strange
word for the old rover; but we all have a taste for home and
the home…like; disguise it how we may。 It has brought me
here; Mr。 Naseby;' he concluded; with an intonation that
would have made his fortune on the stage; so just; so sad; so
dignified; so like a man of the world and a philosopher; 'and
you see a man who is content。'
'I see;' said Dick。
'Sit down;' continued the parasite; setting the example。
'Fortune has gone against me。 (I am just sirrupping a little
brandy … after my journey。) I was going down; Mr。 Naseby;
between you and me; I was DECAVE; I borrowed fifty francs;
smuggled my valise past the concierge … a work of
considerable tact … and here I am!'
'Yes;' said Dick; 'and here you are。' He was quite idiotic。
Esther; at this moment; re…entered the room。
'Are you glad to see him?' she whispered in his ear; the
pleasure in her voice almost bursting through the whisper
into song。
'Oh yes;' said Dick; 'very。'
'I knew you would be;' she re