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e　orders；　which　are　too　rigid。　There　is　no　allowance　for　a　change　in　circumstance。　He　rubbed　his　feet　together　and　then　took　his　hands　out　of　the　jacket　sleeves　and　bent　over　and　rubbed　his　legs　with　them　and　patted　his　feet　together　to　keep　the　circulation　going。　It　was　less　cold　there；　out　of　the　wind　in　the　shelter　of　the　tree；　but　he　would　have　to　start　walking　shortly。
As　he　crouched；　rubbing　his　feet；　he　heard　a　motorcar　on　the　road。　It　had　on　chains　and　one　link　of　chain　was　slapping　and；　as　he　Watched；　it　came　up　the　snow…covered　road；　green　and　brown　painted；　in　broken　patches　of　daubed　color；　the　windows　blued　over　so　that　you　could　not　see　in；　with　only　a　half　circle　left　clear　in　the　blue　for　the　occupants　to　look　out　through。　It　was　a　two…year…old　Rolls…Royce　town　car　camouflaged　for　the　use　of　the　General　Staff　but　Anselmo　did　not　know　that。　He　could　not　see　into　the　car　where　three　officers　sat　wrapped　in　their　capes。　Two　were　on　the　back　seat　and　one　sat　on　the　folding　chair。　The　officer　on　the　folding　chair　was　looking　out　of　the　slit　in　the　blue　of　the　window　as　the　car　passed　but　Anselmo　did　not　know　this。　Neither　of　them　saw　the　other。
The　car　passed　in　the　snow　directly　below　him。　Anselmo　saw　the　chauffeur；　red…faced　and　steel…helmeted；　his　face　and　helmet　projecting　out　of　the　blanket　cape　he　wore　and　he　saw　the　forward　jut　of　the　automatic　rifle　the　orderly　who　sat　beside　the　chauffeur　carried。　Then　the　car　was　gone　up　the　road　and　Anselmo　reached　into　the　inside　of　his　jacket　and　took　out　from　his　shirt　pocket　the　two　sheets　torn　from　Robert　Jordan's　notebook　and　made　a　mark　after　the　drawing　of　a　motorcar。　It　was　the　tenth　car　up　for　the　day。　Six　had　come　down。　Four　were　still　up。　It　was　not　an　unusual　amount　of　cars　to　move　upon　that　road　but　Anselmo　did　not　distinguish　between　the　Fords；　Fiats；　Opels；　Renaults；　and　Citroens　of　the　staff　of　the　Division　that　held　the　passes　and　the　line　of　the　mountain　and　the　Rolls…Royces；　Lancias；　Mercedes；　and　Isottas　of　the　General　Staff。　This　was　the　sort　of　distinction　that　Robert　Jordan　should　have　made　and；　if　he　had　been　there　instead　of　the　old　man；　he　would　have　appreciated　the　significance　of　these　cars　which　had　gone　up。　But　he　was　not　there　and　the　old　man　simply　made　a　mark　for　a　motorcar　going　up　the　road；　on　the　sheet　of　note　paper。
Anselmo　was　now　so　cold　that　he　decided　he　had　best　go　to　camp　before　it　was　dark。　He　had　no　fear　of　missing　the　way；　but　he　thought　it　was　useless　to　stay　longer　and　the　wind　was　blowing　colder　all　the　time　and　there　was　no　lessening　of　the　snow。　But　when　he　stood　up　and　stamped　his　feet　and　looked　through　the　driving　snow　at　the　road　he　did　not　start　off　up　the　hillside　but　stayed　leaning　against　the　sheltered　side　of　the　pine　tree。
The　_Ingl閟_　told　me　to　stay；　he　thought。　Even　now　he　may　be　on　the　way　here　and；　if　I　leave　this　place；　he　may　lose　himself　in　the　snow　searching　for　me。　All　through　this　war　we　have　suffered　from　a　lack　of　discipline　and　from　the　disobeying　of　orders　and　I　will　wait　a　while　still　for　the　_Ingl閟_。　But　if　he　does　not　come　soon　I　must　go　in　spite　of　all　orders　for　I　have　a　report　to　make　now；　and　I　have　much　to　do　in　these　days；　and　to　freeze　here　is　an　exaggeration　and　without　utility。
Across　the　road　at　the　sawmill　smoke　was　coming　out　of　the　chimney　and　Anselmo　could　smell　it　blown　toward　him　through　the　snow。　The　fascists　are　warm；　he　thought；　and　they　are　comfortable；　and　tomorrow　night　we　will　kill　them。　It　is　a　strange　thing　and　I　do　not　like　to　think　of　it。　I　have　watched　them　all　day　and　they　are　the　same　men　that　we　are。　I　believe　that　I　could　walk　up　to　the　mill　and　knock　on　the　door　and　I　would　be　welcome　except　that　they　have　orders　to　challenge　all　travellers　and　ask　to　see　their　papers。　It　is　only　orders　that　come　between　us。　Those　men　are　not　fascists。　I　call　them　so；　but　they　are　not。　They　are　poor　men　as　we　are。　They　should　never　be　fighting　against　us　and　I　do　not　like　to　think　of　the　killing。
These　at　this　post　are　Gallegos。　I　know　that　from　hearing　them　talk　this　afternoon。　They　cannot　desert　because　if　they　do　their　families　will　be　shot。　Gallegos　are　either　very　intelligent　or　very　dumb　and　brutal。　I　have　known　both　kinds。　Lister　is　a　Gallego　from　the　same　town　as　Franco。　I　wonder　what　these　Gallegos　think　of　this　snow　now　at　this　time　of　year。　They　have　no　high　mountains　such　as　these　and　in　their　country　it　always　rains　and　it　is　always　green。
A　light　showed　in　the　window　of　the　sawmill　and　Anselmo　shivered　and　thought；　damn　that　_Ingl閟！_　There　are　the　Gallegos　warm　and　in　a　house　here　in　our　country；　and　I　am　freezing　behind　a　tree　and　we　live　in　a　hole　in　the　rocks　like　beasts　in　the　mountain。　But　tomorrow；　he　thought；　the　beasts　will　come　out　of　their　hole　and　these　that　are　now　so　comfortable　will　die　warm　in　their　blankets。　As　those　died　in　the　night　when　we　raided　Otero；　he　thought。　He　did　not　like　to　remember　Otero。
In　Otero；　that　night；　was　when　he　first　killed　and　he　hoped　he　would　not　have　to　kill　in　this　of　the　suppressing　of　these　posts。　It　was　in　Otero　that　Pablo　knifed　the　sentry　when　Anselmo　pulled　the　blanket　over　his　head　and　the　sentry　caught　Anselmo's　foot　and　held　it；　smothered　as　he　was　in　the　blanket；　and　made　a　crying　noise　in　the　blanket　and　Anselmo　had　to　feel　in　the　blanket　and　knife　him　until　he　let　go　of　the　foot　and　was　still。　He　had　his　knee　across　the　man's　throat　to　keep　him　silent　and　he　was　knifing　into　the　bundle　when　Pablo　tossed　the　bomb　through　the　window　into　the　room　where　the　men　of　the　post　were　all　sleeping。　And　when　the　flash　came　it　was　as　though　the　whole　world　burst　red　and　yellow　before　your　eyes　and　two　more　bombs　were　in　already。　Pablo　had　pulled　the　pins　and　tossed　them　quickly　through　the　window；　and　those　who　were　not　killed　in　their　beds　were　killed　as　they　rose　from　bed　when　the　second　bomb　exploded。　That　was　in　the　great　days　of　Pablo　when　he　scourged　the　country　like　a　tartar　and　no　fascist　post　was　safe　at　night。
And　now；　he　is　as　finished　and　as　ended　as　a　boar　that　has　been　altered；　Anselmo　thought；　and；　when　the　altering　has　been　accomplished　and　the　squealing　is　over　you　cast　the　two　stones　away　and　the　boar；　that　is　a　boar　no　longer；　goes　snouting　and　rooting　up　to　them　and　eats　them。　No；　he　is　not　that　bad；　Anselmo　grinned；　one　can　think　too　badly　even　of　Pablo。　But　he　is　ugly　enough　and　changed　enough。
It　is　too　cold；　he　thought。　That　the　_Ingl閟_　should　come　and　that　I　should　not　have　to　kill　in　this　of　the　posts。　These　four　Gallegos　and　their　corporal　are　for　those　who　like　the　killing。　The　_Ingl閟_　said　that。　I　will　do　it　if　it　is　my　duty　but　the　_Ingl閟_　said　that　I　would　be　with　him　at　the　bridge　and　that　this　would　be　left　to　others。　At　the　bridge　there　will　be　a　battle　and；　if　I　am　able　to　endure　the　battle；　then　I　will　have　done　all　that　an　old　man　may　do　in　this　war。　But　let　the　_Ingl閟_　come　now；　for　I　am　cold　and　to　see　the　light　in　the　mill　where　I　know　that　the　Gallegos　are　warm　makes　me　colder　still。　I　wish　that　I　were　in　my　own　house　again　and　that　this　war　were　over。　But　you　have　no　house　now；　he　thought。　We　must　win　this　war　before　you　can　ever　return　to　your　house。
Inside　the　sawmill　one　of　the　soldiers　was　sitting　on　his　bunk　and　greasing　his　boots。　Another　lay　in　his　bunk　sleeping。　The　third　was　cooking　and　the　corporal　was　reading　a　paper。　Their　helmets　hung　on　nails　driven　into　the　wall　and　their　rifles　leaned　against　the　plank　wall。
〃What　kind　of　country　is　this　where　it　snows　when　it　is　almost　June？〃　the　soldier　who　was　sitting　on　the　bunk　said。
〃It　is　a　phenomenon；〃　the　corporal　said。
〃We　are　in　the　moon　of　May；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃The　moon　of　May　has　not　yet　terminated。〃
〃What　kind　of　a　country　is　it　where　it　snows　in　May？〃　the　soldier　on　the　bunk　insisted。
〃In　May　snow　is　no　rarity　in　these　mountains；〃　the　corporal　said。　〃I　have　been　colder　in　Madrid　in　the　month　of　May　than　in　any　other　month。〃
〃And　hotter；　too；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。
〃May　is　a　month　of　great　contrasts　in　temperature；〃　the　corporal　said。　〃Here；　in　Castile；　May　is　a　month　of　great　heat　but　it　can　have　much　cold。〃
〃Or　rain；〃　the　soldier　on　the　bunk　said。　〃In　this　past　May　it　rained　almost　every　day。〃
〃It　did　not；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃And　anyway　this　past　May　was　the　moon　of　April。〃
〃One　could　go　crazy　listening　to　thee　and　thy　moons；〃　the　corporal　said。　〃Leave　this　of　the　moons　alone。〃
〃Any　one　who　lives　either　by　the　sea　or　by　the　land　knows　that　it　is　the　moon　and　not　the　month　which　counts；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃Now　for　example；　we　have　just　started　the　moon　of　May。　Yet　it　is　coming　on　June。〃
〃Why　then　do　we　not　get　definitely　behind　in　the　seasons？〃　the　corporal　said。　〃The　whole　proposition　gives　me　a　headache。〃
〃You　are　from　a　town；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃You　are　from　Lugo。　What　would　you　know　of　the　sea　or　of　the　land？〃
〃One　learns　more　in　a　town　than　you　_analfabetos_　learn　in　thy　sea　or　thy　land。〃
〃In　this　moon　the　first　of　the　big　schools　of　sardines　come；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃In　this　moon　the　sardine　boats　will　be　outfitting　and　the　mackerel　will　have　gone　north。〃
〃Why　are　you　not　in　the　navy　if　you　come　from　Noya？〃　the　corporal　asked。
〃Because　I　am　not　inscribed　from　Noya　but　from　Negreira；　where　I　was　born。　And　from　Negreira；　which　is　up　the　river　Tambre；　they　take　you　for　the　army。〃
〃Worse　luck；〃　said　the　corporal。
〃Do　not　think　the　navy　is　without　peril；〃　the　soldier　who　was　sitting　on　the　bunk　said。　〃Even　without　the　possibility　of　combat　that　is　a　dangerous　coast　in　the　winter。〃
〃Nothing　can　be　worse　than　the　army；〃　the　corporal　said。
〃And　you　a　corporal；〃　the　soldier　who　was　cooking　said。　〃What　a　way　of　speaking　is　that？〃
〃Nay；〃　the　corporal　said。　〃I　mean　for　dangers。　I　mean　the　endurance　of　bombardments；　the　necessity　to　attack；　the　life　of　the　parapet。〃
〃Here　we　have　little　of　that；〃　the　soldier　on　the　bunk　said。
〃By　the　Grace　of　God；〃　the　corporal　said。　〃But　who　knows　when　we　will　be　subject　to　it　again？　Certainly　we　will　not　have　something　as　easy　as　this　forever！〃
〃How　much　longer　do　you　think　we　will　have　this　detail？〃
〃I　don't　know；〃　the　corporal