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;Don't�察�'but Martha' me�察─�she replied to my deprecatory tone。
;Listen to reason; ´
;I'll not listen to reason�察─ �she said�察 �now in full possession of her
voice�察 �which had been rather choked with sobbing。 ;Reason always
means what someone else has got to say。 Now I think what I've got to
say is good enough reason�察�but reason or not�察�I'll say it�察�and I'll stick to it。
I've money in the Savings Bank�察�and I've a good stock of clothes�察 �and
I'm not going to leave Miss Matty。 No�察 �not if she gives me warning
every hour in the day� ─�
She put her arms akimbo�察 �as much as to say she defied me�察 �and�察�
indeed�察�I could hardly tell how to begin to remonstrate with her�察 �so much
did I feel that Miss Matty�察 �in her increasing infirmity�察 �needed the
attendance of this kind and faithful woman。
;Well; ´ said I at last。
;I'm thankful you begin with 'well��' If you'd have begun with 'but��'
as you did afore�察�I'd not ha' listened to you。 Now you may go on。;
;I know you would be a great loss to Miss Matty�察�Martha; ´
;I telled her so。 A loss she'd never cease to be sorry for�察─�broke in
Martha triumphantly。
;Still�察�she will have so little ´ so very little ´ to live upon�察 �that I don't
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see just now how she could find you food ´ she will even be pressed for
her own。 I tell you this�察�Martha�察�because I feel you are like a friend to
dear Miss Matty�察 �but you know she might not like to have it spoken
about。;
Apparently this was even a blacker view of the subject than Miss
Matty had presented to her�察�for Martha just sat down on the first chair
that came to hand�察 �and cried out loud ��we had been standing in the
kitchen��。
At last she put her apron down�察�and looking me earnestly in the face�察�
asked�察 �Was that the reason Miss Matty wouldn't order a pudding to´day�拭�
She said she had no great fancy for sweet things�察 �and you and she would
just have a mutton chop。 But I'll be up to her。 Never you tell�察�but I'll
make her a pudding�察 �and a pudding she'll like�察 �too�察 �and I'll pay for it
myself�察�so mind you see she eats it。 Many a one has been comforted in
their sorrow by seeing a good dish come upon the table。;
I was rather glad that Martha's energy had taken the immediate and
practical direction of pudding´making�察�for it staved off the quarrelsome
discussion as to whether she should or should not leave Miss Matty's
service。 She began to tie on a clean apron�察 �and otherwise prepare
herself for going to the shop for the butter�察 �eggs�察�and what else she might
require。 She would not use a scrap of the articles already in the house
for her cookery�察�but went to an old tea´pot in which her private store of
money was deposited�察 �and took out what she wanted。
I found Miss Matty very quiet�察�and not a little sad�察�but by´and´by she
tried to smile for my sake。 It was settled that I was to write to my
father�察�and ask him to come over and hold a consultation�察�and as soon as
this letter was despatched we began to talk over future plans。 Miss
Matty's idea was to take a single room�察 �and retain as much of her
furniture as would be necessary to fit up this�察�and sell the rest�察�and there
to quietly exist upon what would remain after paying the rent。 For my
part�察 �I was more ambitious and less contented。 I thought of all the
things by which a woman�察 �past middle age�察 �and with the education
common to ladies fifty years ago�察�could earn or add to a living without
materially losing caste�察 �but at length I put even this last clause on one
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side�察�and wondered what in the world Miss Matty could do。
Teaching was�察 �of course�察 �the first thing that suggested itself。 If
Miss Matty could teach children anything�察�it would throw her among the
little elves in whom her soul delighted。 I ran over her accomplishments。
Once upon a time I had heard her say she could play ;Ah� �vous dirai´je�察�
maman�拭─�on the piano�察�but that was long�察 �long ago�察�that faint shadow of
musical acquirement had died out years before。 She had also once been
able to trace out patterns very nicely for muslin embroidery�察�by dint of
placing a piece of silver paper over the design to be copied�察�and holding
both against the window´pane while she marked the scollop and eyelet´
holes。 But that was her nearest approach to the accomplishment of
drawing�察�and I did not think it would go very far。 Then again�察�as to the
branches of a solid English education ´ fancy work and the use of the
globes ´ such as the mistress of the Ladies' Seminary�察 �to which all the
tradespeople in Cranford sent their daughters�察�professed to teach。 Miss
Matty's eyes were failing her�察 �and I doubted if she could discover the
number of threads in a worsted´work pattern�察 �or rightly appreciate the
different shades required for Queen Adelaide's face in the loyal wool´
work now fashionable in Cranford。 As for the use of the globes�察�I had
never been able to find it out myself�察�so perhaps I was not a good judge
of Miss Matty's capability of instructing in this branch of education�察�but
it struck me that equators and tropics�察�and such mystical circles�察 �were
very imaginary lines indeed to her�察�and that she looked upon the signs of
the Zodiac as so many remnants of the Black Art。
What she piqued herself upon�察 �as arts in which she excelled�察 �was
making candle´lighters�察 �or ;spills; ��as she preferred calling them���察 �of
coloured paper�察�cut so as to resemble feathers�察�and knitting garters in a
variety of dainty stitches。 I had once said�察 �on receiving a present of an
elaborate pair�察�that I should feel quite tempted to drop one of them in the
street�察�in order to have it admired�察�but I found this little joke ��and it was
a very little one�� was such a distress to her sense of propriety�察�and was
taken with such anxious�察�earnest alarm�察�lest the temptation might some
day prove too strong for me�察�that I quite regretted having ventured upon
it。 A present of these delicately´wrought garters�察 �a bunch of gay
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;spills�察─�or a set of cards on which sewing´silk was wound in a mystical
manner�察�were the well´known tokens of Miss Matty's favour。 But would
any one pay to have their children taught these arts�拭�or�察 �indeed�察�would
Miss Matty sell�察�for filthy lucre�察�the knack and the skill with which she
made trifles of value to those who loved her�拭�
I had to come down to reading�察 �writing�察 �and arithmetic�察 �and�察 �in
reading the chapter every morning�察 �she always coughed before coming
to long words。 I doubted her power of getting through a genealogical
chapter�察 �with any number of coughs。 Writing she did well and
delicately ´ but spelling� �She seemed to think that the more out´of´the´
way this was�察 �and the more trouble it cost her�察 �the greater the
compliment she paid to her correspondent�察 �and words that she would
spell quite correctly in her letters to me became perfect enigmas when
she wrote to my father。
No� �there was nothing she could teach to the rising generation of
Cranford�察�unless they had been quick learners and ready imitators of her
patience�察�her humility�察�her sweetness�察�her quiet contentment with all that
she could not do。 I pondered and pondered until dinner was announced
by Martha�察�with a face all blubbered and swollen with crying。
Miss Matty had a few little peculiarities which Martha was apt to
regard as whims below her attention�察 �and appeared to consider as
childish fancies of which an old lady of fifty´eight should try and cure
herself。 But to´day everything was attended to with the most careful
regard。 The bread was cut to the imaginary pattern of excellence that
existed in Miss Matty's mind�察 �as being the way which her mother had
preferred�察�the