hemingway, ernest - for whom the bell tolls-第90部分
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ng off and they picked him up again。 And then they had him up to the shelter of the long draw in the timber where the horses were； and Maria； Pilar and Pablo were standing over him。
Maria was kneeling by him and saying； 〃Roberto； what hast thou？〃
He said； sweating heavily； 〃The left leg is broken； _guapa_。〃
〃We will bind it up；〃 Pilar said。 〃Thou canst ride that。〃 She pointed to one of the horses that was packed。 〃Cut off the load。〃
Robert Jordan saw Pablo shake his head and he nodded at him。
〃Get along；〃 he said。 Then he said； 〃Listen； Pablo。 Come here。〃
The sweat…streaked； bristly face bent down by him and Robert Jordan smelt the full smell of Pablo。
〃Let us speak；〃 he said to Pilar and Maria。 〃I have to speak to Pablo。〃
〃Does it hurt much？〃 Pablo asked。 He was bending close over Robert Jordan。
〃No。 I think the nerve is crushed。 Listen。 Get along。 I am mucked； see？ I will talk to the girl for a moment。 When I say to take her； take her。 She will want to stay。 I will only speak to her for a moment。〃
〃Clearly； there is not much time；〃 Pablo said。
〃Clearly。〃
〃I think you would do better in the Republic；〃 Robert Jordan said。
〃Nay。 I am for Gredos。〃
〃Use thy head。〃
〃Talk to her now；〃 Pablo said。 〃There is little time。 I am sorry thou hast this； _Ingl閟_。〃
〃Since I have it〃 Robert Jordan said。 〃Let us not speak of it。 But use thy head。 Thou hast much head。 Use it。〃
〃Why would I not？〃 said Pablo。 〃Talk now fast； _Ingl閟_。 There is no time。〃
Pablo went over to the nearest tree and watched down the slope； across the slope and up the road across the gorge。 Pablo was looking at the gray horse on the slope with true regret on his face and Pilar and Maria were with Robert Jordan where he sat against the tree trunk。
〃Slit the trouser； will thee？〃 he said to Pilar。 Maria crouched by him and did not speak。 The sun was on her hair and her face was twisted as a child's contorts before it cries。 But she was not crying。
Pilar took her knife and slit his trouser leg down below the lefthand pocket。 Robert Jordan spread the cloth with his hands and looked at the stretch of his thigh。 Ten inches below the hip joint there was a pointed； purple swelling like a sharp…peaked little tent and as he touched it with his fingers he could feel the snapped…off thigh bone tight against the skin。 His leg was lying at an odd angle。 He looked up at Pilar。 Her face had the same expression as Maria's。
〃_Anda_；〃 he said to her。 〃Go。〃
She went away with her head down without saying anything nor looking back and Robert Jordan could see her shoulders shaking。
〃_Guapa_；〃 he said to Maria and took hold of her two hands。 〃Listen。 We will not be going to Madrid〃
Then she started to cry。
〃No； _guapa_； don't；〃 he said。 〃Listen。 We will not go to Madrid now but I go always with thee wherever thou goest。 Understand？〃
She said nothing and pushed her head against his cheek with her arms around him。
〃Listen to this well； rabbit；〃 he said。 He knew there was a great hurry and he was sweating very much； but this had to be said and understood。 〃Thou wilt go now； rabbit。 But I go with thee。 As long as there is one of us there is both of us。 Do you understand？〃
〃Nay； I stay with thee。〃
〃Nay； rabbit。 What I do now I do alone。 I could not do it well with thee。 If thou goest then I go； too。 Do you not see how it is？ Whichever one there is； is both。〃
〃I will stay with thee。〃
〃Nay； rabbit。 Listen。 That people cannot do together。 Each one must do it alone。 But if thou goest then I go with thee。 It is in that way that I go too。 Thou wilt go now； I know。 For thou art good and kind。 Thou wilt go now for us both。〃
〃But it is easier if I stay with thee；〃 she said。 〃It is better for me。〃
〃Yes。 Therefore go for a favor。 Do it for me since it is what thou canst do。〃
〃But you don't understand； Roberto。 What about me？ It is worse for me to go。〃
〃Surely；〃 he said。 〃It is harder for thee。 But I am thee also now。〃
She said nothing。
He looked at her and he was sweating heavily and he spoke now； trying harder to do something than he had ever tried in all his life。
〃Now you will go for us both；〃 he said。 〃You must not be selfish； rabbit。 You must do your duty now。〃
She shook her head。
〃You are me now；〃 he said。 〃Surely thou must feel it； rabbit。
〃Rabbit； listen；〃 he said。 〃Truly thus I go too。 I swear it to thee。〃
She said nothing。
〃Now you see it；〃 he said。 〃Now I see it is clear。 Now thou wilt go。 Good。 Now you are going。 Now you have said you will go。〃
She had said nothing。
〃Now I thank thee for it。 Now you are going well and fast and far and we both go in thee。 Now put thy hand here。 Now put thy head down。 Nay； put it down。 That is right。 Now I put my hand there。 Good。 Thou art so good。 Now do not think more。 Now art thou doing what thou should。 Now thou art obeying。 Not me but us both。 The me in thee。 Now you go for us both。 Truly。 We both go in thee now。 This I have promised thee。 Thou art very good to go and very kind。〃
He jerked his head at Pablo； who was half…looking at him from the tree and Pablo started over。 He motioned with his thumb to Pilar。
〃We will go to Madrid another time； rabbit；〃 he said。 〃Truly。 Now stand up and go and we both go。 Stand up。 See？〃
〃No；〃 she said and held him tight around the neck。
He spoke now still calmly and reasonably but with great authority。
〃Stand up；〃 he said。 〃Thou art me too now。 Thou art all there will be of me。 Stand up。〃
She stood up slowly； crying； and with her head down。 Then she dropped quickly beside him and then stood up again； slowly and tiredly； as he said； 〃Stand up； guapa。〃
Pilar was holding her by the arm and she was standing there。
〃_Vamonos_；〃 Pilar said。 〃Dost lack anything； _Ingl閟？_〃 She looked at him and shook her head。
〃No；〃 he said and went on talking to Maria。
〃There is no good…by； _guapa_； because we are not apart。 That it should be good in the Gredos。 Go now。 Go good。 Nay；〃 he spoke now still calmly and reasonably as Pilar walked the girl along。 〃Do not turn around。 Put thy foot in。 Yes。 Thy foot in。 Help her up；〃 he said to Pilar。 〃Get her in the saddle。 Swing up now。〃
He turned his head； sweating； and looked down the slope； then back toward where the girl was in the saddle with Pilar by her and Pablo just behind。 〃Now go；〃 he said。 〃Go。〃
She started to look around。 〃Don't look around；〃 Robert Jordan said。 〃Go。〃 And Pablo hit the horse across the crupper with a hobbling strap and it looked as though Maria tried to slip from the saddle but Pilar and Pablo were riding close up against her and Pilar was holding her and the three horses were going up the draw。
〃Roberto；〃 Maria turned and shouted。 〃Let me stay！ Let me stay！〃
〃I am with thee；〃 Robert Jordan shouted。 〃I am with thee now。 We are both there。 Go！〃 Then they were out of sight around the corner of the draw and he was soaking wet with sweat and looking at nothing。
Agust韓 was standing by him。
〃Do you want me to shoot thee； _Ingl閟？_〃 he asked； leaning down close。 〃_Quieres？_ It is nothing。〃
〃_No hace falta_；〃 Robert Jordan said。 〃Get along。 I am very well here。〃
〃_Me cago en la leche que me han dado！_〃 Agust韓 said。 He was crying so he could not see Robert Jordan clearly。 〃_Salud； Ingl閟_。〃
〃_Salud_； old one；〃 Robert Jordan said。 He was looking down the slope now。 〃Look well after the cropped head； wilt thou？〃
〃There is no problem；〃 Agust韓 said。 〃Thou has what thou needest？〃
〃There are very few shells for this _m醧uina_； so I will keep it；〃 Robert Jordan said。 〃Thou canst now get more。 For that other and the one of Pablo； yes。〃
〃I cleaned out the barrel；〃 Agust韓 said。 〃Where thou plugged it in the dirt with the fall。〃
〃What became of the pack…horse？〃
〃The gypsy caught it。〃
Agust韓 was on the horse now but he did not want to go。 He leaned far over toward the tree where Robert Jordan lay。
〃Go on； _viejo_；〃 Robert Jordan said to him。 〃In war there are many things like this。〃
〃_Qu椤uta es Ia guerra_；〃 Agust韓 said。 〃War is a bitchery。〃
〃Yes； man； yes。 But get on with thee。〃
〃_Salud； Ingl閟_；〃 Agust韓 said； clenching his right fist。
〃_Salud_；〃 Robert Jordan said。 〃But get along； man。〃
Agust韓 wheeled his horse and brought his right fist down as though he cursed again with the motion of it and rode up the draw。 All the others had been out of sight long before。 He looked back where the draw turned in the timber and waved his fist。 Robert Jordan waved and then Agust韓； too； was out of sight。。 。 。 Robert Jordan looked down the green slope of the hillside to the road and the bridge。 I'm as well this way as any； he thought。 It wouldn't be worth risking getting over on my belly yet； not as close as that thing was to the surface； and I can see better this way。
He felt empty and drained and exhausted from all of it and from them going and his mouth tasted of bile。 Now； finally and at last； there was no problem。 however all of it had been and however all of it would ever be now； for him； no longer was there any problem。
They were all gone now and he was alone with his back against a tree。 He looked down across the green slope； seeing the gray horse where Agust韓 had shot him； and on down the slope to the road with the timber…covered country behind it。 Then he looked at the bridge and across the bridge and watched the activity on the bridge and the road。 He could see the trucks now； all down the lower road。 The gray of the trucks showed through the trees。 Then he looked back up the road to where it came down over the hill。 They will be coming soon now； he thought。
Pilar will take care of her as well as any one can。 You know that。 Pablo must have a sound plan or he would not have tried it。 You do not have to worry about Pablo。 It does no good to think about Maria。 Try to believe what you told her。 That is the best。 And who says it is not true？ Not you。 You don't say it； any more than you would say the things did not happen that happened。 Stay with what you believe now。 Don't get cynical。 The time is too short and you have just sent her away。 Each one does what he can。 You can do nothing for yourself but perhaps you can do something for another。 Well； we had all our luck in four days。 Not four days。 It was afternoon when I first got there and it will not be n
