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She was not treated harshly there�察�but was shut up in a narrow prison�察�and
obliged�察 �in solitary confinement�察 �to perform a certain quantity of work
each day�察�as a necessary condition for obtaining the most unpalatable food。
I did not learn this till a long time after�察�when I had myself endured some
months of rough and cruel treatment。
;My guards not having told me where it was that they had been
ordered to conduct me�察 �it was only on my arrival at St。 Lazare that I
learned my destination。 I would have preferred death�察�at that moment�察�to
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the state into which I believed myself about to be thrown。 I had the
utmost terror of this place。 My misery was increased by the guards on
my entrance�察�examining once more my pockets�察�to ascertain whether I had
about me any arms or weapons of defence。
;The governor appeared。 He had been informed of my apprehension。
He saluted me with great mildness。 `Do not�察�my good sir��' said I to him�察�
`allow me to be treated with indignity。 I would suffer a hundred deaths
rather than quietly submit to degrading treatment。' `No�察�no��' he replied�察�
`you will act quietly and prudently�察�and we shall be mutually content with
each other。' He begged of me to ascend to one of the highest rooms�察 �I
followed him without a murmur。 The archers accompanied us to the door�察�
and the governor�察�entering the room�察�made a sign for them to depart。 `I
am your prisoner�察�I suppose��' said I�察 �well�察�what do you intend to do with
me��' He said�察�he was delighted to see me adopt so reasonable a tone�察�that
it would be his duty to endeavour to inspire me with a taste for virtue and
religion�察�and mine to profit by his exhortations and advice�此�that lightly as I
might be disposed to rate his attentions to me�察�I should find nothing but
enjoyment in my solitude。 `Ah�察 �enjoyment�察 �indeed��' replied I�察 �you do
not know�察 �my good sir�察 �the only thing on earth that could afford me
enjoyment。' `I know it��' said he�察 �but I trust your inclinations will
change。' His answer showed that he had heard of my adventures�察 �and
perhaps of my name。 I begged to know if such were the fact。 He told
me candidly that they had informed him of every particular。
;This blow was the severest of any I had yet experienced。 I literally
shed a torrent of tears�察�in all the bitterness of unmixed despair�察�I could not
reconcile myself to the humiliation which would make me a proverb to all
my acquaintances�察�and the disgrace of my family。 I passed a week in the
most profound dejection�察 �without being capable of gaining any
information�察 �or of occupying myself with anything but my own
degradation。 The remembrance even of Manon added nothing to my
grief�察�it only occurred to me as a circumstance that had preceded my new
sorrow�察 �and the sense of shame and confusion was at present the all´
absorbing passion。
;There are few persons who have experienced the force of these
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special workings of the mind。 The generality of men are only sensible of
five or six passions�察�in the limited round of which they pass their lives�察�and
within which all their agitations are confined。 Remove them from the
influence of love and hate�察�pleasure and pain�察�hope and fear�察�and they have
no further feeling。 But persons of a finer cast can be affected in a
thousand different ways�察 �it would almost seem that they had more than
five senses�察�and that they are accessible to ideas and sensations which far
exceed the ordinary faculties of human nature�察 �and�察 �conscious that they
possess a capacity which raises them above the common herd�察 �there is
nothing of which they are more jealous。 Hence springs their impatience
under contempt and ridicule�察�and hence it is that a sense of debasement is
perhaps the most violent of all their emotions。
;I had this melancholy advantage at St。 Lazare。 My grief appeared to
the governor so excessive�察�that�察�dreading the consequences�察�he thought he
was bound to treat me with more mildness and indulgence。 He visited
me two or three times a day�察�he often made me take a turn with him in the
garden�察�and showed his interest for me in his exhortations and good advice。
I listened always attentively�察 �and warmly expressed my sense of his
kindness�察�from which he derived hopes of my ultimate conversion。
;`You appear to me��' said he one day�察 �of a disposition so mild and
tractable�察 �that I cannot comprehend the excesses into which you have
fallen。 Two things astonish me�此 �one is�察 �how�察 �with your good qualities�察�
you could have ever abandoned yourself to vice�察 �and the other�察 �which
amazes me still more�察�is�察�how you can receive with such perfect temper
my advice and instructions�察 �after having lived so long in a course of
debauchery。 If it be sincere repentance�察�you present a singular example
of the benign mercy of Heaven�察�if it proceed from the natural goodness of
your disposition�察�then you certainly have that within you which warrants
the hope that a protracted residence in this place will not be required to
bring you back to a regular and respectable life。'
;I was delighted to find that he had such an opinion of me。 I resolved
to strengthen it by a continuance of good conduct�察�convinced that it was
the surest means of abridging the term of my confinement。 I begged of
him to furnish me with books。 He was agreeably surprised to find that
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when he requested me to say what I should prefer�察�I mentioned only some
religious and instructive works。 I pretended to devote myself assiduously
to study�察�and I thus gave him convincing proof of the moral reformation he
was so anxious to bring about。 It was nothing�察 �however�察 �but rank
hypocrisyI blush to confess it。 Instead of studying�察 �when alone I did
nothing but curse my destiny。 I lavished the bitterest execrations on my
prison�察�and the tyrants who detained me there。 If I ceased for a moment
from these lamentations�察 �it was only to relapse into the tormenting
remembrance of my fatal and unhappy love。 Manon's absencethe
mystery in which her fate was veiledthe dread of never again beholding
her�察�these formed the subject of my melancholy thoughts。 I fancied her
in the arms of G M。 Far from imagining that he could have been
brute enough to subject her to the same treatment to which I was
condemned�察 �I felt persuaded that he had only procured my removal�察 �in
order that he might possess her in undisturbed enjoyment。
;Oh� �how miserable were the days and nights I thus passed� �They
seemed to be of endless duration。 My only hope of escape now�察�was in
hypocrisy�察 �I scrutinised the countenance�察 �and carefully marked every
observation that fell from the governor�察�in order to ascertain what he really
thought of me�察�and looking on him as the sole arbiter of my future fate�察�I
made it my study to win�察 �if possible�察 �his favour。 I soon had the
satisfaction to find that I was firmly established in his good graces�察�and no
longer doubted his disposition to befriend me。
;I�察�one day�察�ventured to ask him whether my liberation depended on
him。 He replied that it was not altogether in his hands�察�but that he had no
doubt that on his representation M。 G M�察 �at whose instance the
lieutenant´general of police had ordered me to be confined�察�would consent
to my being set at liberty。 `May I flatter myself��' rejoined I�察 �in the
mildest tone�察 �that he will consider two months�察�which I have now spent in
this prison�察�as a sufficient atonement��' He offered to speak to him�察�if I
wished it。 I implored him without delay to do me that favour。
;He told me two days afterwards that G M was so sensibly
affected by what he had heard�察�that he not only was ready to consent to my
liberation�察�but that he had even expressed a strong desire to become better
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acquainted with me�察 �and that he himself purposed to pay me a visit in
prison。 Although his presence could not afford me much pleasure�察 �I
looked upon it as a certain prelude to my liberation。
;He accordingly came to St。 Lazare。 I met him with an air more
grave and certainly less silly than I had exhibited at his house with Manon。
He spoke reasonably enough of my former b