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my projects of a holy life were wild absurdities�此�in fact�察�any joys but those
I may hope for at your side are fit objects of contempt。 There are none
that would not vanish into worthlessness before one single glance of
thine��'
;In promising her�察 �however�察 �a full remission of her past frailties�察 �I
enquired how she permitted herself to be led astray by B。 She
informed me that having seen her at her window�察�he became passionately
in love with her�察�that he made his advances in the true style of a mercantile
cit��that is to say�察 �by giving her to understand in his letter�察 �that his
payments would be proportioned to her favours�察�that she had admitted his
overtures at first with no other intention than that of getting from him such
a sum as might enable us to live without inconvenience�察�but that he had so
bewildered her with splendid promises�察 �that she allowed herself to be
misled by degrees。 She added�察�that I ought to have formed some notion
of the remorse she experienced�察�by her grief on the night of our separation�察�
and assured me that�察�in spite of the splendour in which he maintained her�察�
she had never known a moment's happiness with him�察�not only�察�she said�察�
because he was utterly devoid of that delicacy of sentiment and of those
agreeable manners which I possessed�察�but because even in the midst of the
amusements which he unceasingly procured her�察�she could never shake off
the recollection of my love�察 �or her own ingratitude。 She then spoke of
Tiberge�察�and the extreme embarrassment his visit caused her。 `A dagger's
point��' she added�察 �could not have struck more terror to my heart。 I
turned from him�察�unable to sustain the interview for a moment。'
;She continued to inform me how she had been apprised of my
residence at Paris�察�of the change in my condition�察�and of her witnessing
my examination at the Sorbonne。 She told me how agitated she had been
during my intellectual conflict with the examiner�察�what difficulty she felt
in restraining her tears as well as her sighs�察�which were more than once on
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the point of spurning all control�察�and bursting forth�察�that she was the last
person to leave the hall of examination�察�for fear of betraying her distress�察�
and that�察 �following only the instinct of her own heart�察 �and her ardent
desires�察 �she came direct to the seminary�察 �with the firm resolution of
surrendering life itself�察 �if she found me cruel enough to withhold my
forgiveness。
;Could any savage remain unmoved by such proofs of cordial
repentance as those I had just witnessed�拭 �For my part�察 �I felt at the
moment that I could gladly have given up all the bishoprics in
Christendom for Manon。 I asked what course she would recommend in
our present emergency。 `It is requisite��' she replied�察 �at all events�察�to quit
the seminary�察�and settle in some safer place。' I consented to everything
she proposed。 She got into her carriage to go and wait for me at the
corner of the street。 I escaped the next moment�察 �without attracting the
porter's notice。 I entered the carriage�察 �and we drove off to a Jew's。 I
there resumed my lay´dress and sword。 Manon furnished the supplies�察�
for I was without a sou�察 �and fearing that I might meet with some new
impediment�察 �she would not consent to my returning to my room at St。
Sulpice for my purse。 My finances were in truth wretchedly low�察 �and
hers more than sufficiently enriched by the liberality of M。 de B to
make her think lightly of my loss。 We consulted together at the Jew's as
to the course we should now adopt。
;In order to enhance the sacrifice she had made for me of her late lover�察�
she determined to treat him without the least ceremony。 `I shall leave
him all his furniture��' she said�察 �it belongs to him�此 �but I shall assuredly
carry off�察 �as I have a right to do�察 �the jewels�察 �and about sixty thousand
francs�察 �which I have had from him in the last two years。 I have given
him no control over me��' she added�察 �so that we may remain without
apprehension in Paris�察�taking a convenient house�察�where we shall live�察�oh
how happily together��'
;I represented to her that�察�although there might be no danger for her�察�
there was a great deal for me�察 �who must be sooner or later infallibly
recognised�察 �and continually exposed to a repetition of the trials I had
before endured。 She gave me to understand that she could not quit Paris
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without regret。 I had such a dread of giving her annoyance�察 �that there
were no risks I would not have encountered for her sake。 However�察�we
compromised matters by resolving to take a house in some village near
Paris�察�from whence it would be easy for us to come into town whenever
pleasure or business required it。 We fixed on Chaillot�察 �which is at a
convenient distance。 Manon at once returned to her house�察�and I went to
wait for her at a side´gate of the garden of the Tuileries。
;She returned an hour after�察�in a hired carriage�察�with a servant´maid�察�
and several trunks�察�which contained her dresses�察�and everything she had of
value。
;We were not long on our way to Chaillot。 We lodged the first night
at the inn�察 �in order to have time to find a suitable house�察 �or at least a
commodious lodging。 We found one to our taste the next morning。
;My happiness now appeared to be secured beyond the reach of fate。
Manon was everything most sweet and amiable。 She was so delicate and
so unceasing in her attentions to me�察 �that I deemed myself but too
bountifully rewarded for all my past troubles。 As we had both�察�by this
time�察�acquired some experience�察 �we discussed rationally the state of our
finances。 Sixty thousand francs ��the amount of our wealth�� was not a
sum that could be expected to last our whole life�察�besides�察�we were neither
of us much disposed to control our expenses。 Manon's chief virtue
assuredly was not economy�察 �any more than it was mine。 This was my
proposition。 `Sixty thousand francs��' said I�察 �may support us for ten years。
Two thousand crowns a year will suffice�察�if we continue to live at Chaillot。
We shall keep up appearances�察�but live frugally。 Our only expense will
be occasionally a carriage�察 �and the theatres。 We shall do everything in
moderation。 You like the opera�察�we shall go twice a week�察�in the season。
As for play�察�we shall limit ourselves�察�so that our losses must never exceed
three crowns。 It is impossible but that in the space of ten years some
change must occur in my family�此�my father is even now of an advanced
age�察�he may die�察�in which event I must inherit a fortune�察�and we shall then
be above all other fears。'
;This arrangement would not have been by any means the most silly
act of my life�察 �if we had only been prudent enough to persevere in its
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execution�察 �but our resolutions hardly lasted longer than a month。
Manon's passion was for amusement�察 �she was the only object of mine。
New temptations to expense constantly presented themselves�察�and far from
regretting the money which she sometimes prodigally lavished�察�I was the
first to procure for her everything likely to afford her pleasure。 Our
residence at Chaillot began even to appear tiresome。
;Winter was approaching�察�and the whole world returning to town�察�the
country had a deserted look。 She proposed to me to take a house in Paris。
I did not approve of this�察�but�察�in order partly at least to satisfy her�察�I said
that we might hire furnished apartments�察 �and that we might sleep there
whenever we were late in quitting the assembly�察 �whither we often went�察�
for the inconvenience of returning so late to Chaillot was her excuse for
wishing to leave it。 We had thus two dwellings�察 �one in town and the
other in the country。 This change soon threw our affairs into confusion�察�
and led to two adventures�察�which eventually caused our ruin。
;Manon had a brother in the Guards。 He unfortunately lived in the
very street in which we had taken lodgings。 He one day recognised his
sister at the window�察 �and hastened over to us。 He was a fellow of the
rudest manners�察�and without the slightest principle of honour。